How did you survive college? What was the mental aftermath? Let me contextualise:
I live in a 3rd world country. I grinded for 4 years as a humanities undergraduate as an aspergercel. I endured it's hardships both related to the intelectual endevour at hand and witnessing normies and foids partying, i even fucked up my social status by trying to score a bitch i've had oneitis while asking for advice by close friends, that which in turn came to her knowledge, which i cringe and deeply regret. But i digress.
The thing which is making me desperate is that after all these years i can barely recall most things i learned, as if i had some kind of trauma-induced amnesia( i had a panic attack halfway through it and started taking ((pills)) ever since). I'm not even closely prepared to write a master's thesis, because i didn't practice much my scientific writing all along and tbh the class in this subject really sucked ass. Although i took an IQ test with my psychologist this year that i scored 140, i really feel like i'm way under it rn. I feel like i've lost all major stepstones in life, both socially and study-wise, i never took studying very seriously when i was in school because it was easy back then, but in college my studymaxxing was in vain because it was too late and i didn't took a decision to what type of research i would be doing. If i don't do this now and enter the masters i might have to wagemaxx in a back breaking job with minimum salary since there's no betabuxx for me in this country.
What should i do at this point? Take another college course which doesn't need postgraduation? Accept my limitation as a retard who wasted his potential and take any low-end job opportunity that appears? Just rope already?
Any questions just ask.
@Atavistic Autist
@blickpall
I live in a 3rd world country. I grinded for 4 years as a humanities undergraduate as an aspergercel. I endured it's hardships both related to the intelectual endevour at hand and witnessing normies and foids partying, i even fucked up my social status by trying to score a bitch i've had oneitis while asking for advice by close friends, that which in turn came to her knowledge, which i cringe and deeply regret. But i digress.
The thing which is making me desperate is that after all these years i can barely recall most things i learned, as if i had some kind of trauma-induced amnesia( i had a panic attack halfway through it and started taking ((pills)) ever since). I'm not even closely prepared to write a master's thesis, because i didn't practice much my scientific writing all along and tbh the class in this subject really sucked ass. Although i took an IQ test with my psychologist this year that i scored 140, i really feel like i'm way under it rn. I feel like i've lost all major stepstones in life, both socially and study-wise, i never took studying very seriously when i was in school because it was easy back then, but in college my studymaxxing was in vain because it was too late and i didn't took a decision to what type of research i would be doing. If i don't do this now and enter the masters i might have to wagemaxx in a back breaking job with minimum salary since there's no betabuxx for me in this country.
What should i do at this point? Take another college course which doesn't need postgraduation? Accept my limitation as a retard who wasted his potential and take any low-end job opportunity that appears? Just rope already?
Any questions just ask.
@Atavistic Autist
@blickpall
