I haven't had a meaningful in-person social interaction where I would laugh and talk and hang out with others for the longest time. I miss some of my friends from when I was in elementary and middle school. We kind of drifted apart in high school, by junior year in HS I had become a recluse with 2-3 friends. Now I have one friend who I talk to often but never see in person because he's in a different area of the country, he's also an incel.
It's just that I can't open myself up enough to have a good time, it's like even the people I used to be really close with (I'm talking, hanging out every day and night of summer), if I see them in person today, I act awkward. Maybe it's because they're normies, I used to be a normie before the acne breakouts which is when I was forced to venture into the odd places of the internet. I still feel like I can relate to them on some level though, just because of all the good times we had when I was young.
A while ago, one of my friends from when I was younger reached out to me but I managed not to make anything out of it. Maybe I'll reach out this week, I'm seriously getting lonely at this point. I managed to find happiness alone for many years but I'm just bored and depressed now.
Fuck I feel like crying srs.
Life was so much simpler and fun as a little kid.
It's just that I can't open myself up enough to have a good time, it's like even the people I used to be really close with (I'm talking, hanging out every day and night of summer), if I see them in person today, I act awkward. Maybe it's because they're normies, I used to be a normie before the acne breakouts which is when I was forced to venture into the odd places of the internet. I still feel like I can relate to them on some level though, just because of all the good times we had when I was young.
A while ago, one of my friends from when I was younger reached out to me but I managed not to make anything out of it. Maybe I'll reach out this week, I'm seriously getting lonely at this point. I managed to find happiness alone for many years but I'm just bored and depressed now.
Fuck I feel like crying srs.
Life was so much simpler and fun as a little kid.
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