Hard to call them friends, it is like a clear undisputed fact whenever I go out that I am the loser in the room or area I am in, and they want to make that as clear as possible, to me their words sound like they wish I just died or would be under constant torture, they hate me really bad. I can't afford to be a shutin because I have to go outside and make money so I don't end up homeless, I buy and sell corn in taverns, most people who glance at me spit and then stare for a few seconds, and when I walk the street I get spat at my feet whenever I pass by a male stranger, and if we are in an inside setting, they will mimic a spitting sound and snort their nose really badly, just to display their disgust towards me. I make enough just to survive but the disrespect I deal with makes me feel people's evil to my fucking bones and it hurts. The human race fucking sucks. The "friends" who call themselves that always bully me and never stand up for me when I get bullied, instead they side with the bully and say "yeah he's a stupid loser what can you do"
Ugly stuff