The girl I met in class today made a joke abt my looks and height, said I would be a good friend with her poodle. She humilated me even when I talked to her first and tried my best to be polite. When she looked at me and said I looks like a tiny poodle, I laughed at it, but deep inside it scars me because I've been insecure and treated differently for my looks my whole life and just wanted to change. I remember all those late nights crying because how ugly I am and just to relize I'm not genetically blessed. It got so bad to the point where I don't even want to look up while washing my hand because I'm afraid to look at my own reflection. No matter what I do I still feel worthless, ugly and unloveable, anytime I'm involved in social activities foids always there and makes fun of me. Maybe in another life I could be good looking and be loved by the girl I have never talked to.
