I am sorry to heat that, bud.
I know it's extremely tough and totally humiliating to constantly ask for help and proper attention and never receiving it. I am not sure which country you stay, but if possible ask for help - maybe for a job or for free therapy sessions.
And if you are residing in a high-risk neighbourhood, it's better to get as much help as possible if that makes you get out of it. Because currently the neighbourhood I am at is extremely bad given my finances - I have borrowed some clothes from my older brother for a series of interviews this week and if I get the jobs, it will make me stay out of the place most of the day.
Additionally, given I will be in a public setting - it is going to force me to take care of my daily hygiene. Such things helps a lot with our mental health too, again I am not trying to patronise you here but trying to pass on what little structure in my life is aiding me now.