He only makes it worse, despite me telling him what upsets me and trying. I'm so done with trying. I'm so tired. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up, but I have to stay alive for the baby, and she won't stop screaming at me. She won't give me the rest and peace I need, not even for five minutes on the toilet. Nobody will want me if I leave. I don't own anything and I don't even have a bank account here with a single dollar. No job experience, no higher education, nothing. I'm 22 and my life is locked in forever, and he knows that. Deep down, he knows that I'm stuck and he uses me for it. I have no friends, no family, nobody who will listen to me. I truly am a nothing. If I vanished, people would be sad, but would forget about my existence after a while, because I'm truly insignificant. I started being insignificant for all of them when they decided I was fair game, and for months I was alone in a room full of former friends, until I left to be with him. I followed him around the world and he gave me our daughter and things can be so happy, but I'm so alone. Every day is the same. They bleed into each other. I wish I could make myself bleed again without anyone noticing. I think I'm going insane.
