I gotta be up at 4:30am for work in the morning to begin with (10:33pm currently) 
But I can't escape the feeling of being behind in life, I can't escape the feeling that I'll never have children, I'll never know what it's like to hold the hand of a woman I love, ill never know the feeling of having someone fall asleep In my arms telling me they love me.
I often swim in the pool of self-pity and tell myself things like "I'm 23 and it's already over for me". But the reality is that it never even began as I was never even a competitor in life I was just part of the background.
I don't think things will get any better for me, it seems like every year I just sit and wallow in my own misery powerless to make any meaningful change as I raised the white flag long ago yet still hoping for a miracle that will never come.
with a body scarred through years of self harm and a mind fucked from drug use and being a pushover I can say quite confidently that my life won't improve but what I can't answer is why do I still hang on.
Sorry for the poorly articulated soy-rant brocels I'm just stuck in my own head
View: https://youtu.be/StqioKCPqF8?feature=shared
But I can't escape the feeling of being behind in life, I can't escape the feeling that I'll never have children, I'll never know what it's like to hold the hand of a woman I love, ill never know the feeling of having someone fall asleep In my arms telling me they love me.
I often swim in the pool of self-pity and tell myself things like "I'm 23 and it's already over for me". But the reality is that it never even began as I was never even a competitor in life I was just part of the background.
I don't think things will get any better for me, it seems like every year I just sit and wallow in my own misery powerless to make any meaningful change as I raised the white flag long ago yet still hoping for a miracle that will never come.
with a body scarred through years of self harm and a mind fucked from drug use and being a pushover I can say quite confidently that my life won't improve but what I can't answer is why do I still hang on.
Sorry for the poorly articulated soy-rant brocels I'm just stuck in my own head
View: https://youtu.be/StqioKCPqF8?feature=shared
