Serious Feel that you do not belong, for your entire life, even by having a walk.

[Jerek]

I'm almost 35, so i'm older than the most of you.

When i take a walk around my neighborhood i just see good looking teens having fun togheter, while nerds (like i was at their age) are probably playing games in their rooms.

So someone could say that of course i don't belong, i'm a creepy mid 30's guy looking at teens, right? No.

This feeling is always the same: i've felt it since puberty but it was even worse, because my status as a "grown up" allow me to detach myself a little, telling to myself "i'm not their age, i'm not supposed to think about teen years"... i can do this now, and it doesn't even work necessarily.

But then, as a teen, i was just "one of them", with the diffearence that i was ugly, weak (i didn't gym at the times) and i didn't have the "grown up status", so i could get myself into troubles with bullies if i went around the neighborhood like i do now. It never happened luckily, but i felt vulnerable passing through group of guys of my age playing basketball and such. Now, at least, i can do that without having fear, because i could probably kill a teen with my bare hands.

So a cuck would say: just hang out with people of your age!

It doesn't work. I have an example for this, and i've talked about him in an older thread: there's this acquitance of mine, an old middle school classmate, that does this. He's frigging ugly and also fat (i've noticed that fat people tends to be way more submissive). Every time he goes out and some pictures of him and his "friends" is published on his facebook, the comments are all about him being ugly.

I would NEVER BE ABLE to having a "social life" like that. The jester of the group, the ugly one. He even tried to gymmaxx with laughable results (=from fat to dadbod with the same horrid face), and when he showed that on "Facebook" i just gave him a word of encouraging while his "friends" mocked him that there is no gym for his face (i swear it's true).

There is no escape from this shit guys.

 

[Deleted member 26399]

Sweety, it's not about looks. Personality is all that matters. It's all in your head, just put yourself out there

 

[Deleted member 22999]

You got almost 2 decades on me, so I can only imagine what kind of world you got going on. That said, I’ve had a sorta similar experience on a walk before. The other day I was walking and went past a mom and her two kids, a young son and daughter, walking the other way down the road. I heard the mom talk to the son telling him to slow down, and he actually the same name as me. He waved at me as I walked past, which felt nice. I waved back and kept walking. I couldnt help but wonder what his life would be like as he got older. Would he be attractive, or would his life continue to eerily mirror my own? It almost felt like seeing young me. Same hair color too. Pretty strange experience

 

[Jerek]

You got almost 2 decades on me, so I can only imagine what kind of world you got going on. That said, I’ve had a sorta similar experience on a walk before. The other day I was walking and went past a mom and her two kids, a young son and daughter, walking the other way down the road. I heard the mom talk to the son telling him to slow down, and he actually the same name as me. He waved at me as I walked past, which felt nice. I waved back and kept walking. I couldnt help but wonder what his life would be like as he got older. Would he be attractive, or would his life continue to eerily mirror my own? It almost felt like seeing young me. Same hair color too. Pretty strange experience

Honestly i don't think it changes a lot, that's probably one of the reason older incel feels like they are not "grown up" at all. I have a steady job, i own a house and i manage my shit togheter and, despite that, i feel that the two decades you're talking about are nothing, and i'm the same teenage guy that feels rejected just for his face.

It's haunting. The only good thing i can say is that, if you obtain financial indipendence, it becomes easier. Escorts are a must ofc, especially hot young teens (in europe it's pretty easy to find them).

 

[ToxicPersonality]

This is brutal. The years must just pass by while you continue to cope, holding on to maybe one day things might look up. I always wonder how oldcels dont off themselves. But i guess its because you have no other choice but to just keep going on. The years fly by and nothing has changed. Im trying to put myself through school so i can atleast try and get a ok paying job so i can have the ability to support myself atleast when my family passes. I guess thats all my life will be. I want to go and experience things while im still in my 20s, but the years are passing so wuickly, and i dont have the opportunity to make it work. The best i can do for now is grind my minimum wage job and online classes and hope that in my mid 30s like you i can be in a middle management position in a career so i can have some economic freedom and maybe travel around some. But most likely i will be defeated, and become one of the swine that i see around. Id like to say id rather die than become one of them, but im sure its my destiny to be a burned out old man drinking booze and cigs.

 

[Deleted member 26884]

Brutal tbhngl, lacking of looks or height is like playing life with all handicaps on.

 

[Tenshi]

Honestly i don't think it changes a lot, that's probably one of the reason older incel feels like they are not "grown up" at all. I have a steady job, i own a house and i manage my shit togheter and, despite that, i feel that the two decades you're talking about are nothing, and i'm the same teenage guy that feels rejected just for his face.

It's haunting. The only good thing i can say is that, if you obtain financial indipendence, it becomes easier. Escorts are a must ofc, especially hot young teens (in europe it's pretty easy to find them).

damn bro, right in the feels

 

[Jerek]

This is brutal. The years must just pass by while you continue to cope, holding on to maybe one day things might look up. I always wonder how oldcels dont off themselves. But i guess its because you have no other choice but to just keep going on. The years fly by and nothing has changed. Im trying to put myself through school so i can atleast try and get a ok paying job so i can have the ability to support myself atleast when my family passes. I guess thats all my life will be. I want to go and experience things while im still in my 20s, but the years are passing so wuickly, and i dont have the opportunity to make it work. The best i can do for now is grind my minimum wage job and online classes and hope that in my mid 30s like you i can be in a middle management position in a career so i can have some economic freedom and maybe travel around some. But most likely i will be defeated, and become one of the swine that i see around. Id like to say id rather die than become one of them, but im sure its my destiny to be a burned out old man drinking booze and cigs.

If it's any help for you or anyone here, i think i'm in the "best" years of my life.

Being indipendent and not having to manage some old hag is quite an experience.

I'm ugly, but i'm "fit", so i feel i have the dignity to go around without anyone mocking me, just be indifferent, and having the chance to fuck hot girls on a decent basis (i've found some even for 50 euros, it's just a quick fuck but seeing a tight firm butt bouncing on your dick makes you feel better - no wonder why Chad is always happy, he gets this for free and enthusiastically )

 

[denial of the will]

Totally I felt same things.

 

[ToxicPersonality]

If it's any help for you or anyone here, i think i'm in the "best" years of my life.

Being indipendent and not having to manage some old hag is quite an experience.

I'm ugly, but i'm "fit", so i feel i have the dignity to go around without anyone mocking me, just be indifferent, and having the chance to fuck hot girls on a decent basis (i've found some even for 50 euros, it's just a quick fuck but seeing a tight firm butt bouncing on your dick makes you feel better - no wonder why Chad is always happy, he gets this for free and enthusiastically )

So basically copemax? It sounds very depressing. I think thats really the only way to still exist past like 25

 

[Jerek]

So basically copemax? It sounds very depressing. I think thats really the only way to still exist past like 25

Basically. Copemaxx + realizing that you're still in a way better situation that your average middle aged betabuxxer, forced into a bad marriage, maybe even with children, prone to be cucked and divorce-raped, getting some ounce of starfish sex or none at all (and this is real, it's not made up).

My mindset is "it could have been worse, let's just try to enjoy the small things of my life".

 

[Deleted member 24293]

I don't belong here neither. I hate society and people/individuals because I've never really had a friend or a romantic relationship, obviously. Even my parents despise me. Of course nowadays I've changed towards the negative and I'm just a weird and hateful man but it used to be different.

 

[ToxicPersonality]

Basically. Copemaxx + realizing that you're still in a way better situation that your average middle aged betabuxxer, forced into a bad marriage, maybe even with children, prone to be cucked and divorce-raped, getting some ounce of starfish sex or none at all (and this is real, it's not made up).

My mindset is "it could have been worse, let's just try to enjoy the small things of my life".

Idk, i feel like youre trying hard to see the worst things in having a partner and trying to avoid the good things, like having companionship, someone there to cuddle with at night, to talk about your thoughts and feelings, to plan a direction in life with, etc. All things that normal people get to have. You seem to be coping exteemly hard to the point where you actually believe MGTOW-esque copes. I just find it highly suspect. Yeah, its better than marrying someone who isnt attracted to you. But i dont see how its possibly a better sitution than being with a women who actually finds you physically attractive

 

[Jerek]

Idk, i feel like youre trying hard to see the worst things in having a partner and trying to avoid the good things, like having companionship, someone there to cuddle with at night, to talk about your thoughts and feelings, to plan a direction in life with, etc. All things that normal people get to have. You seem to be coping exteemly hard to the point where you actually believe MGTOW-esque copes. I just find it highly suspect. Yeah, its better than marrying someone who isnt attracted to you. But i dont see how its possibly a better sitution than being with a women who actually finds you physically attractive

MGTOW are just incels in denials or boomers that got divorce raped, that thinks women will care if they go "on their way".

I'm just saying that of course i'd like to fuck women that finds me sexually attractive, but i'm coping thinking that a lot of average men (of my age) are in deep shit, because i know their stories (coworkers mostly) and you'd be surprised how much of those couples are two people that got togheter because they didn't have a better choice.

At least i'm not trapped in shit like that, but of course i'd like to have a lot of good things with a loyal girlfriend that i like.

 

[truthpill]

My mindset is "it could have been worse, let's just try to enjoy the small things of my life".

This.

 

[Stalin]

I have a steady job, i own a house and i manage my shit togheter

Have you considered to location maxx (SEA), at least temporary for like several months? It turned out that traveling is the best cope for me especially when changing places every 2..3 weeks(different hotels) - it also helps to combat depression among other things.

 

[Jerek]

Have you considered to location maxx (SEA), at least temporary for like several months? It turned out that traveling is the best cope for me especially when changing places every 2..3 weeks(different hotels) - it also helps to combat depression among other things.

No, i've never considered it because i don't like to travel. If i want to fuck asian women i can do it here (by paying, but i don't think going to SEA would grant me that for free unless i'd get in some sort of betabux relationship).

I'd like to go in Japan, though, and i was planning that but it got canceled with the covid situation.

 

[Deleted member 6214]

I'm almost 35, so i'm older than the most of you.

I had to pause and take a minute to let that sink in before I could read the rest. How are you even alive? Making it to 35 without sex/intimacy?

 

[Jerek]

I had to pause and take a minute to let that sink in before I could read the rest. How are you even alive? Making it to 35 without sex/intimacy?

Escorts are a good cope, as i said.