Failed suicide attempt

[GRK]

Its been a long time since i posted here, I know you guys like it quick and short.

Yesterday I went to the mall to buy a 750ml bottle of wine and a pack of Somnil pills. (sedatives)

I researched this and I was convinced this was enough to end it, so I walked up a hill in my neighborhood and found a forest type of area where there were a lot of trees so that nobody finds me.

Inserted 12 pills inside and finished the whole bottle as quickly as I can, I didnt have the time because I left my devices at home but I think I was out for probably two hours.

I woke up looking at some property's night lights and was suprised that I was still alive, in my bag there was another bottle just in case but I was so drunk and my throat was so sore - I just wanted to go home.

As i was about to walk down, I kept falling hard on the ground everytime I stood up - pinnacle of sub5. When i eventually reached civilization, i went to a local corner store and begged the owner to call an uber for me, you should have seen his face and other customer's when I was there and I just realized i dont have my hat right now - so that means they saw my balding head while i was drunk and dirty.

Yesterday was probably the worst of me but I still dont understand why I am still alive, my voice is all fucked up and my throat is so painful that I cant even eat.

(ran out of things to say)

 

[sirlancelot]

Condolences brocel

 

[GRK]

Condolences brocel

thanks, i just dont know what to say or do.

Nobody knows what happened yesterday, I just wanted to post it somewhere at least

 

[Dollfucker]

overdosing has a very low success rate of about 8% if I were to rope I would do the helium method where its painless and has a high success rate

 

[Snow]

I think you should visit a doctor about that throat thing so it doesn’t get worse.

 

[wereq]

overdosing has a very low success rate of about 8% if I were to rope I would do the helium method where its painless and has a high success rate

Inert gas set up is more complicated through. You have to test the flow of gas and ensure there are no leaks.

 

[GRK]

overdosing has a very low success rate of about 8% if I were to rope I would do the helium method where its painless and has a high success rate

Will research when I have the courage to do this again

 

[GRK]

I think you should visit a doctor about that throat thing so it doesn’t get worse.

its a genetic thing, my family always had throat problems

If it is fatal, maybe i can use it to my advantage

 

[Dollfucker]

Inert gas set up is more complicated through. You have to test the flow of gas and ensure there are no leaks.

yeah theres always a catch with each method the you gotta know what your doing and requires a whole setup not to mention expensive to do, its pretty much the pay to win method of roping

 

[wereq]

yeah theres always a catch with each method the you gotta know what your doing and requires a whole setup not to mention expensive to do, its pretty much the pay to win method of roping

The most simple and reliable method has to be full suspension roping. Its been used throughout history for executions so its reliability is great and it can also be tested because you can lean in your neck to check the thickness, placement and pressure exerted by the ligature. For me, the choice is between roping and SN. SN being hard to source now makes roping the method of choice for me. I already have my 12 mm static climbing rope. Just need a good anchor point.

 

[GRK]

The most simple and reliable method has to be full suspension roping. Its been used throughout history for executions so its reliability is great and it can also be tested because you can lean in your neck to check the thickness, placement and pressure exerted by the ligature. For me, the choice is between roping and SN. SN being hard to source now makes roping the method of choice for me. I already have my 12 mm static climbing rope. Just need a good anchor point.

this is a sad life we are living

 

[tradswede]

i'm not trying to help you with your suicide but why don't you just rope or shoot yourself in the face

 

[sinan]

God wants you to be alive. I hope you get better bro

 

[chihiro]

we’re here for u man sending virtual hugs

 

[cadaver-growing]

Damn bro. Stay with us.

 

[wereq]

this is a sad life we are living

Words can't explain how sad I am.

 

[wereq]

God wants you to be alive.

Unfortunately its the opposite of this.

 

[sinan]

Unfortunately its the opposite of this.

He survived that's a sign

 

[CursedMutantSoul]

The most simple and reliable method has to be full suspension roping. Its been used throughout history for executions so its reliability is great and it can also be tested because you can lean in your neck to check the thickness, placement and pressure exerted by the ligature. For me, the choice is between roping and SN. SN being hard to source now makes roping the method of choice for me. I already have my 12 mm static climbing rope. Just need a good anchor point.

People become Quads doing that like my profile pic

 

[wereq]

People become Quads doing that like my profile pic

You only get brain damage if you're discovered and """saved""".

 

[BlackPilledNormi]

its a genetic thing, my family always had throat problems

If it is fatal, maybe i can use it to my advantage

Visiting a doctor has the problem that he may figure out what happened and sends you to a ward

 

[Zaraj11]

I researched this

Was it a 5 minutes "research"? I can't understand why so many people try it without real research. I know girls do it to get attention. From what I see you're similar, otherwise you would have tried again the next day. It seems you don't really want to die, you should think about it first and only do it if you see no other option.

 

[CursedMutantSoul]

You only get brain damage if you're discovered and """saved""".

Which happens often or the rope unties and you fall as a braindead quad

 

[Lunaticcurrycel]

Its been a long time since i posted here, I know you guys like it quick and short.

Yesterday I went to the mall to buy a 750ml bottle of wine and a pack of Somnil pills. (sedatives)

I researched this and I was convinced this was enough to end it, so I walked up a hill in my neighborhood and found a forest type of area where there were a lot of trees so that nobody finds me.

Inserted 12 pills inside and finished the whole bottle as quickly as I can, I didnt have the time because I left my devices at home but I think I was out for probably two hours.

I woke up looking at some property's night lights and was suprised that I was still alive, in my bag there was another bottle just in case but I was so drunk and my throat was so sore - I just wanted to go home.

As i was about to walk down, I kept falling hard on the ground everytime I stood up - pinnacle of sub5. When i eventually reached civilization, i went to a local corner store and begged the owner to call an uber for me, you should have seen his face and other customer's when I was there and I just realized i dont have my hat right now - so that means they saw my balding head while i was drunk and dirty.

Yesterday was probably the worst of me but I still dont understand why I am still alive, my voice is all fucked up and my throat is so painful that I cant even eat.

(ran out of things to say)

My condolences bro.
What kind of faces did they make? I can't imagine properly

 

[RevIncel]

If you make it out of that one alive, that should be a sign. I'm not a superstitious guy, but because few people are given a second chance that cleanly, be grateful you didn't end up mentally or physically impaired. Sadly, there is no clean escape from living; we've all been placed in this jail against our will.

I wish you well, OP.

 

[wereq]

Which happens often or the rope unties and you fall as a braindead quad

Use climbing rope and tie knots to ensure that it doesn't come undone. This is not hard to do. Anchor point has to be very secure and sturdy though.

 

[GRK]

God wants you to be alive. I hope you get better bro

thats the conclusion i ended up having myself, and i hate him more now

 

[GRK]

Visiting a doctor has the problem that he may figure out what happened and sends you to a ward

Doctor's in my country (especially women) dont care about men

 

[Ijustwantbehappy]

Condolences brocel

Don't take your own life. I believe you still have a chance to change, maybe even find the foid of your life and even if you don't, keep going anyway. There are other ways to be happy btw

 

[Sir Silentium]

Sanctioned Suicide

A community that discusses mental illness and suicide from the perspective of suicidal people, as well as the moral implications of the act itself.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[Mailercel]

extremely lucky you didn’t end up like the other guy……..too bad he got rejected in Hell for being sub-5 by Kurt Cobain and resurrected to be a truecel 1.

 

[GRK]

mini update

I am now convinced that our phone have AI malware, literally minutes after posting this - i start getting recommended videos on youtube that are suspiciously targeted at a person in my situation.

I have pressed "not interested" so many times but they keep popping up, this obviously means my suffering is just clickbait to these companies.

"Stanford's Sapolsky On Depression in U.S. (Full Lecture)
Stanford"

"The Only Cure for Resentment"

"Robin Williams: Alcohol, Cocaine, & Rehab"

"How To Interrogate a Narcissist"

"
How do antidepressants work?"

it goes on and on, I havent even refreshed my page

 

[cymbeline]

it's a horror

 

[Defetivecuckachu]

I am now convinced that our phone have AI malware, literally minutes after posting this - i start getting recommended videos on youtube that are suspiciously targeted at a person in my situation.

Wait until you learn about "google"

It will blow your mind.

Glad you're still with us man.

 

[cathuluelitist]

mini update

I am now convinced that our phone have AI malware, literally minutes after posting this - i start getting recommended videos on youtube that are suspiciously targeted at a person in my situation.

I have pressed "not interested" so many times but they keep popping up, this obviously means my suffering is just clickbait to these companies.

"Stanford's Sapolsky On Depression in U.S. (Full Lecture)
Stanford"

"The Only Cure for Resentment"

"Robin Williams: Alcohol, Cocaine, & Rehab"

"How To Interrogate a Narcissist"

"
How do antidepressants work?"

it goes on and on, I havent even refreshed my page

They're always watching. I need to get a dumb phone and follow ludd

 

[GRK]

They're always watching. I need to get a dumb phone and follow ludd

The idea of dumb phone is so inviting until you realize you need a smartphone for most things in this world, i do use a dumb phone on weekends though

(either way thank you guys for just responding/texting me, it means a lot)

 

[NickelodeonCel]

Pills rarely kill you boyo except a few that are hard to get.

 

[yeetbender_]

Condolences.