Today i saw a video of someone going to a concert with his friend, i always wanted to do it but no one like me, it ruined my day reminding how much of a failure i am, the feeling when you think about the fact that no one give a fuck about you i could kms now and no one will be concerned about it probably even the opposite, everyday i woke up to see how much my life is bad, i litteraly do nothing exciting or special while every person my age go out with friends drink party, have fun together. What do i do wrong, why can they do that and not me ? Everyday i cope by hating others because my brain doesnt want to understand that I am the problem and nothing else. I dont even want bad happening to them anymore like i did before, im just a bad person but at least im enought egoist for the moment to keep myself alive.
