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Every time I go outside, I always think it'll cheer me up and make me feel better, but it doesn't.
Something always happens which will remind me how much I hate the world.
Today I was walking on the sidewalk, and I realised that i was walking the wrong way. So I turned around, and as soon as I turned around some woman who was walking in my direction crossed the street to avoid me.
This has happened multiple times. Especially if I happen to make eye contact with them on the street, they will cross over to avoid me.
It has made me afraid to make eye contact with them, and I'm now naturally aversed to eye contact. I feel like a plague that is infecting people by looking into their eyes. As if I'm committing some kind of a crime by doing it.
Stuff like this has made me hate going outside and hate the entire world.
Something always happens which will remind me how much I hate the world.
Today I was walking on the sidewalk, and I realised that i was walking the wrong way. So I turned around, and as soon as I turned around some woman who was walking in my direction crossed the street to avoid me.
This has happened multiple times. Especially if I happen to make eye contact with them on the street, they will cross over to avoid me.
It has made me afraid to make eye contact with them, and I'm now naturally aversed to eye contact. I feel like a plague that is infecting people by looking into their eyes. As if I'm committing some kind of a crime by doing it.
Stuff like this has made me hate going outside and hate the entire world.
