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You wake up, for a brief moment before you’re fully conscious and semi asleep you feel at peace, relaxed, blissful. Then after a few moments you eventually wake up fully and remember your life and immediately the usual feeling of despair and fear of pointlessness comes back. As usual you have no calls, no texts, nobody cares about you. You have to quickly rush to take a shit and get ready for wage slave time. During wage slave hours all you want to do is go home. When you finally get home you immediately feel dread and despair realizing you just did all that shit you hated for no reason, because nobody is home waiting for you and you are just slaving away for nothing and nobody. You have literally nothing to live for, and nobody cares. You go to sleep either drunk or on sleeping meds, not because you like it but out of necessity, to calm down the nerves knowing you get sweet release of the cousin of death for a while before waking up and repeating it all over again. Tomorrow the same thing happens, repeat infinitely. Nothing changes, you still have nobody calling or texting and you rot alone on your time off after pointlessly wage slaving.
