When I was in elementary school the main differences between me and my classmates felt to me like they were based more on religion than ethnicity/race (since I'm from a muslim family). Like, when we went on a school trip to a place where they served meat, they had to give me something else and it made me feel awkward and left out, that kind of stuff. But for the most part, I was not treated differently with the exception of a few isolated incidents. I was significantly shorter than my peers but I never even saw that from a racial viewpoint, just a lack of fortune on my side.
What's funny is that I grew up in a >99% white neighbourhood and the large majority of my school was white so to me mentally, I kind of felt like I was white, kind of like how those kids who are raised by dogs think they are dogs themselves while looking like humans to actual dogs. I felt more connection to white people than people of my own ethnicity because I was used to growing up around them and our mentalities matched more while ethnics were mainly ghetto trash who acted like thugs which didn't really fit well with my timid nature.
It was only as I got into my late teens that I realised how difficult it is for ethnics to get the interest of white foids (or any foids for that matter). I was brutally rejected by this nerdy girl-next-door type of white foid with acne and glasses that no boy really showed any interest in which made me realise it was over for me. I used to delude and cope for a while, thinking that white foids were all hardcore leftists who loved immigrants and refugees and that's why I'll probably get their interest as well someday. But the truth is that they like those Syrian rapefugee type of guys not because of their looks but because they behave more high-T and primal compared to white men who were taught to respect foids and stuff.
Just to be clear: it's not like I only feel attracted to white foids or only want to date white foids, I would not mind dating a ricefoid or a curry or something, it's just that most ethnics only go for either tall white guys or high-T ethnics who thugmaxx. Ethnics like me, who look ethnic but behave like whites have absolutely zero chances in the west.
angrycurrycel said:
I was an outcast since a young age. But back then, I didn't think my race had anything to do with it. i didn't see it as a hindrance to my daily life whatsoever. I was def more ignorant about this at a younger age. I started to realize the implications of race when I was a freshmen in high school i would say. I realized all the popular kids in school were white. All the kids with hot girlfriends were white. The tallest kids in my school were white. No ethnics were popular or well liked. Instead they were bullied by either whites or other ethnics. They never got racist jokes thrown at them. I realized my parents were part of the reason it was more difficult. ethnic parents just seem way worse and they make your life unnecessarily harder. I realized it was always ethnics that talk about how they hate their family and how dysfunctional it is while whites have a better connection with theirs. Of course, im most focused about uphill battle with the dating scene as an ethnic so it hit me the hardest when I started to care about love. so about age 15. I just saw how all the guys females fawned over were white while almost all ethnics (specifically my race) had rarely been seen with a girl. They always hung out in packs with no females around them. Legit no people of my race were ever seen even talking to a female which is why it was super easy for me to become racepilled early on (15-16). Meanwhile i saw females all giggly around white and black males hanging with and smoking blunts and shit. So at age 14, i wanted to become white but not because they had it easier with girls but because they had it easier overall it seemed. For instance, richer, better family, etc. Now i just wanna be white cuz they do better with bitches mainly. Also they are objectively better looking and racism correlates with lookism so they will get treated better because of that.
This is pretty much the same experience I had.