in my mid 30s. i want to lose it so badly but all the data around prostitutes and whores, in general, are just fucking making me stay away from women on account of that alone. god dammit why couldn't i just had 1 fucking ugly girl want to fuck me when i was 14 or 16 or something? at least then she would be a virgin and clean.
now i have to play STD-roulette and prison-roulette if i ever want to get my dick sucked. fucking disgraceful
with that said i swore i would never be a 30yo virgin and visit a prostitute. i went to see two prostitutes in my lifetime and i just couldn't go through with it. paying for sex is so fucking degrading and the experience of fucking a total stranger doesn't do anything for me. especially since she doesn't want to fuck me. she just rolls her eyes as i get undressed and starts texting her other clients as i'm putting the condom on. nothing lower than paying for sex.
and again with that said i swear i'll never be a 40yo virgin but due to my life i don't think i can afford a hooker anytime soon. so i'll probably be posting on similar forums in 10+ years being a mid 40s virgin. that is if i dont kill myself before then. age is like a ticking time bomb honestly. i don't want to get so old my dick doesn't work and i never experience sex. at the same time i also don't want to get so old that i could never physically overpower a woman in case i ever need to go that route. how embarrassing would it be to attempt an assault and get put in your place by the inferior gender? holy shit i'd have to suicide at that point