I warn you, this is going to be a long (And depressing) thread.
I didn't knew where to label this as "Blackpill", "Venting", "Story"... it doesn't matter that much I guess. I'm not here to brag and there's nothing to brag about here, I don't know where to begin.
Last 2019, after a lifetime of rejection, I came to the conclusion that it was over for me, the idea of dying a virgin gave me anxiety so I contemplated visiting a hooker once or twice just so I knew how it felt like to have sex with a woman, to put my pp in a vj. But I didn't knew that paid sex, even though it's really shitty, it's addictive. After eleven unfulfilling and shitty experiences I feel humiliated, robbed and scammed.
All of them have been rude and disrespectful towards me in one way or another. I feel psychologically devastated after each encounter, but there's a compulsion that drives me to try it again and again, lying to myself, thinking "next time will be different". By the way, in eleven encounters i never managed to cum, i'm not even exaggerating.
I have this friend who's a nearcel, he paid for sex about four times and for the most part did really well, he did the GFE and all that, I've also read experiences from customers on message boards and it looks like they have great sex with most of the local prostitutes. Another friend of mine paid for sex seven times and for the most part did Ok.
Back when I was 27 (Two years ago) I arranged a meeting with an escort in England but she stood me up, maybe because of my foreign accent, maybe because of my nervous and shaky voice. Several months later and back in Spain, at the age of 28 I decided to lose my virginity. Worst decision of my life!
I keep playing the encounters in my mind like sick porno movies I don't want to watch, I would like to forget about everything like if it didn't happen at all. Thankfully, I didn't catch covid. It's a shame that I will only experience bottom-shit-tier "sex" while normies and Chads know what true sex feels like.
Here's how it went so far:
February 3rd 2020. Russian foid in her early 40s. I told her I was 28 and still a virgin and that I've never had a GF, she just said "But why? You don't like women?", what a stupid reply. She just wanked me and gave me a mediocre BJ, I was so tense and uncomfortable, I didn't have one single erection in 30 minutes, what a waste of money. Afterwards I got drunk and cried that night. 50€
March 3rd 2020. Chinese foid. Gave me a mediocre BJ. When I told her to fuck she just gave me shitty excuses like "Your dick's not hard!" when my dick was clearly hard. Replied to the phone and talked with a potential customer for a whole minute while I was still in bed, no fuckin' eye contact (Like the vast majority of them). 50€
May 30th 2020. Spanish foid. Ugly bitch, looked like a junkie (Think of Amy Winehouse for example), just upon entering the door she gave me a really nasty look. Not that bad at giving head. During the first minute I had an erection, the rest of the encounter my dick was soft, she smelled sweaty and was clearly ignoring me during the encounter, I would say I was there for 15 minutes maybe when I paid for thirty. 50€
June 3rd 2020. Brazilian foid. Really hot, looked like a pornstar, about 18 years-old. She didn't let me kiss her even though she said "Girlfriend Experience" in her ads. Also, her pussy smelled like fish. She accidentally left me a phone message after leaving her flat, it sounded like she was cursing at me or something. 60€
August 2nd 2020. Colombian (Half-black) foid. Kicked me out after 18 or 19 minutes when I paid for 30. Rude and disgusting scammer. Everybody was saying she was awesome and giving her five stars, well, not with me. That was a day after my 29th birthday btw. 50€
August 19th 2020. Colombian tranny. Yeah, I've been with a tranny. Most of the encounter "she" was just looking at the phone or looking at me with contempt, such a bitch. 50€
September 14th 2020. Venezuelan foid. Asked me to cum after five minutes when I paid for 30, she just wanted me to cum quick and didn't let me fuck her in the pussy (Like most of them), the BJ lasted about 30 seconds. 50€
October 1st 2020. Another spanish bitch. After a dull blowjob she gave me a yeast infection (I had to go to the ER a week later). Also, she told me she didn't kiss because of covid and I read she tongue-kissed another customer, there were a few seconds of penetration, tight spanish pussy. 30€ (Thankfully this time there was a "quickie" option)
November 10th 2020. Ukrainian foid. Asked me to cum after five minutes, cursed at me in ukrainian for no fuckin' reason, refused to kiss me (I know she kisses the rest of her customers), one of the few good things I can say is that this thot looked like a model/pornstar. I developed a sick obsession towards her. I know she's dating a local Chad and the guy doesn't know she's a prostitute. 50€
December 21st 2020. Yet another spanish foid. Kinda cute, reminded me of Kylie Jenner. This one was friendlier so to speak, I stayed a little bit more than 30 minutes, but she was horrible at giving head, my dick got slightly sore because of her teeth (Not the first time I felt some teeth on my dick). We kissed a little bit, her mouth smelled like ass or something (I know she does rimjobs, maybe it's because of that). 50€
April 4th 2021. Romanian foid. Ugly greasy scummy rude obnoxious whore in her 40s. Yeah, that was yesterday. Now this time I got literally scammed and robbed, she just sucked me like a vaccum and did NOTHING else! Asked me to cum after maybe 3 minutes and kicked me out after 15 minutes at most when I paid for thirty fuckin' minutes! She shouted at me to stop looking at my watch, acted in a menacing and aggressive way for no fuckin' reason. I got really nervous, it was the worst experience by far. 50€
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