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Before I was truly blackpilled, fiction, in all it's forms, was one of my biggest enjoyments in life. Books, movies, games, shows, whatever. I was at my happiest when indulging in escapism. I suppose, I still am, but its effects have been severely dampened.
Now, whenever I am following a story, witnessing characters develop, the blackpill is at the forefront of my mind, constantly reminding me of how unrealistic it all is, how none of these things could happen in reality, how human nature is so much more predictable and dull outside of fiction. It really can ruin the experience at times, and makes suspension of disbelief, and immersion, terribly hard to achieve.
I also can't help but compare myself to fictional entities, always being reminded of how subhuman I am, how I cannot do any of these things that they do, while it is common for better people to do them, IRL. This was common before being blackpilled, but it has however far worsened it.
It seems anhedonia must seep into every facet of my life.![FeelsBadMan :feelsbadman: :feelsbadman:](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAAAAAP///yH5BAEAAAAALAAAAAABAAEAAAIBRAA7)
Has anyone else experienced this? Have you found anyway to lessen the amount it happens?
Now, whenever I am following a story, witnessing characters develop, the blackpill is at the forefront of my mind, constantly reminding me of how unrealistic it all is, how none of these things could happen in reality, how human nature is so much more predictable and dull outside of fiction. It really can ruin the experience at times, and makes suspension of disbelief, and immersion, terribly hard to achieve.
I also can't help but compare myself to fictional entities, always being reminded of how subhuman I am, how I cannot do any of these things that they do, while it is common for better people to do them, IRL. This was common before being blackpilled, but it has however far worsened it.
It seems anhedonia must seep into every facet of my life.
Has anyone else experienced this? Have you found anyway to lessen the amount it happens?