svgmn1
Fat link fanboy
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My failure is being ugly, nice, and weak. those three characteristics define who I was, who I am and who I will be. looking back at some of the core memories and moments that I have in my mind, I literally only see someone losing. losing the fight by being beaten by his bullies as a teenager for six years, losing the battle of respect with his family as their man, losing everyone's respect, losing the fight for trying to be a socially successful person. losing the fight by being constantly ridiculed. my suffering will never stop regardless of what I do. I only know that very few or no people can fully accept me with my ugliness and weakness. as i'm tearing up on the verge of crying writing these words, I think about what I did 24 years earlier when I wrapped the umbicial cord around my neck when I was in my mother's womb and it surprises me how a literal non conscious fetus version of me knew what was and is right to do
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