Right now, I’m completely stressed about the High School Diploma. As the days go by, I feel the pressure rising more and more, and instead of motivating me, it just paralyzes me. I’m barely doing anything to revise because deep down, I’m convinced it’s already doomed, that I’m not going to pass. I feel like I’ve fallen too far behind and that there’s no way to catch up anymore. That thought discourages me even more, and I stay stuck in this negative spiral. Just imagining the results and the shame of failing makes me want to disappear. It feels like it’s definitely over.
On top of that, I feel so much anger and resentment when I think about my bullies probably passing while I might fail. It feels unfair that they could move on while I’m stuck, especially after everything they put me through. The idea that I might have to repeat the year while they succeed makes me feel even worse, like life isn’t just. It’s hard not to feel bitter about it, and that feeling adds to all the stress and hopelessness I’m already carrying.
On top of that, I feel so much anger and resentment when I think about my bullies probably passing while I might fail. It feels unfair that they could move on while I’m stuck, especially after everything they put me through. The idea that I might have to repeat the year while they succeed makes me feel even worse, like life isn’t just. It’s hard not to feel bitter about it, and that feeling adds to all the stress and hopelessness I’m already carrying.
