Sometimes when I have enough energy to stop rotting in my room I decide to go outside and take a long walk with some music. But every single time I finish my journey I end up coming home in a more depressed state than when I left. Walking round I see all these normies with their girlfriends 
and a sense of dread overcomes me and makes my heart sink and feel rotten, its the despair and dread knowing that these people have what most of us on this forum will never experience, its like dangling millions in front of a homeless person. Even worse is that it is the summer so every single normie is going out and rubbing this in my face,. My ex-therapist told me that taking walks would be beneficial and anxiety-reducing but I think thats a massive fucking lie, it just makes me more aware of my loneliness, its real fucking bullshit the generic ass advice they give you.
I feel like im on the verge of tears when im at my front door coming back, I always sense this bleak feeling of doom knowing that the only death I will be experienced is a cold lonely one.
and a sense of dread overcomes me and makes my heart sink and feel rotten, its the despair and dread knowing that these people have what most of us on this forum will never experience, its like dangling millions in front of a homeless person. Even worse is that it is the summer so every single normie is going out and rubbing this in my face,. My ex-therapist told me that taking walks would be beneficial and anxiety-reducing but I think thats a massive fucking lie, it just makes me more aware of my loneliness, its real fucking bullshit the generic ass advice they give you.I feel like im on the verge of tears when im at my front door coming back, I always sense this bleak feeling of doom knowing that the only death I will be experienced is a cold lonely one.
