Serious Does anyone struggle to care about "life decisions"?

[Giracel]

I am at a crux where I essentially have to decide within 2 months whether I want to commit to the medicuck track I have referenced on here before or stay in pure science (i.e. academia). My field (life sciences) has siloed me into this dichotomy as there's no real jobs in it right out of an undergraduate.

One would think that for such a life-altering choice I would care a lot, but I'm finding the opposite. I flip-flop on a whim every day based on what "feels right" and I think it's because there is no right choice. I have been so worn down by spending my best years alone that I cannot find it in me to actually care. Not to mention most days all I want to do is sleep anyway due to being so physically lethargic.

The psychological fatigue of inceldom only gets magnified in the face of things like this. At least if you are a NEET, you can minimize it somewhat. But that's not an option for me. By always being the "good kid" that stayed in line, the bar of expectations kept getting raised, and no one cares that I am barely keeping up.

Genuinely no point to anything

I took the first section of a practice for the medicuck entrance exam I will (I guess) be doing later in the year and failed it horribly. 54% After 4 years of college, barely over half the questions right. Yes I wasn't trying my hardest because it was only practice, but that's still ridiculous...

incels.is

It's a colossal joke man, in my field I am siloed between the medicuck track that everyone knows is horrible (only fake prestige keeps them coping), and pure academia. Remind me what job opportunities we payed for again?

 

[Sir Silentium]

Sometimes, although my important life decisions never turn out in my favour. Something always happens.

 

[Giracel]

Sometimes, although my important life decisions never turn out in my favour. Something always happens.

What I've come to feel is that most things simply do not matter. I'm not afraid of making the wrong choice, just annoyed I have to make one.

 

[Sir Silentium]

What I've come to feel is that most things simply do not matter. I'm not afraid of making the wrong choice, just annoyed I have to make one.

Yes, in the grand scheme of things all of this feels so unimportant and tiresome.
And whichever choice I make I always regret it later and wished I chose the 'other' option.

 

[CursedMutantSoul]

I am at a crux where I essentially have to decide within 2 months whether I want to commit to the medicuck track I have referenced on here before or stay in pure science (i.e. academia). My field (life sciences) has siloed me into this dichotomy as there's no real jobs in it right out of an undergraduate.

One would think that for such a life-altering choice I would care a lot, but I'm finding the opposite. I flip-flop on a whim every day based on what "feels right" and I think it's because there is no right choice. I have been so worn down by spending my best years alone that I cannot find it in me to actually care. Not to mention most days all I want to do is sleep anyway due to being so physically lethargic.

The psychological fatigue of inceldom only gets magnified in the face of things like this. At least if you are a NEET, you can minimize it somewhat. But that's not an option for me. By always being the "good kid" that stayed in line, the bar of expectations kept getting raised, and no one cares that I am barely keeping up.

Genuinely no point to anything

I took the first section of a practice for the medicuck entrance exam I will (I guess) be doing later in the year and failed it horribly. 54% After 4 years of college, barely over half the questions right. Yes I wasn't trying my hardest because it was only practice, but that's still ridiculous...

incels.is

If you can get into medical school do that.

 

[Giracel]

Yes, in the grand scheme of things all of this feels so unimportant and tiresome.
And whichever choice I make I always regret it later and wished I chose the 'other' option.

I just have no regrets in general because there was never a point where the 'wrong' choice was made, because it didn't matter. Most things were not in my control anyway.

The only thing I have managed to control decisively was academic grades… and all that led to is becoming the "smart kid" that no one checks on, and everyone demands more and more and more from.

 

[Giracel]

If you can get into medical school do that.

It's probably what's going to happen. I don't think it will be hard I just hate the medical industry and being treated like a slave, because that's what you are until you're well over 30.

 

[CursedMutantSoul]

It's probably what's going to happen. I don't think it will be hard I just hate the medical industry and being treated like a slave, because that's what you are until you're well over 30.

If you're in medical school, you are the elite that rules the world, no different than a Harvard student.

 

[Giracel]

If you're in medical school, you are the elite that rules the world, no different than a Harvard student.

The only medical-related adjacent elites are pharma tycoons sadly. Doctors are oftentimes just pawns and medical students and residents are scum of the earth.

 

[CursedMutantSoul]

The only medical-related adjacent elites are pharma tycoons sadly.

I don't know what they told you but even nurses are Oligarchs/Elites. This isn't WW1, these are now specialized professionals. Anyone who's even near a hospital is in the Aristocracy.

 

[Giracel]

I don't know what they told you but even nurses are Oligarchs/Elites. This isn't WW1, these are now specialized professionals. Anyone who's even near a hospital is in the Aristocracy.

We'll see if/when we get there

 

[CursedMutantSoul]

We'll see if/when we get there

You don't have to, just google salaries, and combine this with the fact that doctors can live anywhere.

You can make over $150k a year in an area where houses are only 400-500k. You will be eligble for a mortgage with a small down payment.

 

[BricABrac]

Yes... But that's also having an alright job and living alone in a non ghetto environment.

LIFE WOULD BE HELL

But it isn't. If you aren't roping you're living, and life's a lot better with coping money and a car that runs.

 

[INVERTER]

I am at a crux where I essentially have to decide within 2 months whether I want to commit to the medicuck track I have referenced on here before or stay in pure science (i.e. academia). My field (life sciences) has siloed me into this dichotomy as there's no real jobs in it right out of an undergraduate.

One would think that for such a life-altering choice I would care a lot, but I'm finding the opposite. I flip-flop on a whim every day based on what "feels right" and I think it's because there is no right choice. I have been so worn down by spending my best years alone that I cannot find it in me to actually care. Not to mention most days all I want to do is sleep anyway due to being so physically lethargic.

The psychological fatigue of inceldom only gets magnified in the face of things like this. At least if you are a NEET, you can minimize it somewhat. But that's not an option for me. By always being the "good kid" that stayed in line, the bar of expectations kept getting raised, and no one cares that I am barely keeping up.

Genuinely no point to anything

I took the first section of a practice for the medicuck entrance exam I will (I guess) be doing later in the year and failed it horribly. 54% After 4 years of college, barely over half the questions right. Yes I wasn't trying my hardest because it was only practice, but that's still ridiculous...

incels.is

I'm more or less a nihilist. No decisions we make really matter anyway. I went to school for EE and was on track for post-bachelors but now I work in a trade that's somewhat related but not at all what I was focusing on originally (mostly military purposes). Most people are blowing in the wind and constrained by others as to how their life turns out

 

[Giracel]

mostly military purposes

If I could do it over again I would do engineering and go work for the military-industrial complex for the sole purpose of making third worldists seethe. But now I'm stuck with muh helping people.

 

[INVERTER]

If I could do it over again I would do engineering and go work for the military-industrial complex for the sole purpose of making third worldists seethe. But now I'm stuck with muh helping people.

That's what I was doing - I bailed when Elon was doing DOGE and pivoted to a civilian career which suits me more

 

[Giracel]

That's what I was doing - I bailed when Elon was doing DOGE and pivoted to a civilian career which suits me more

DOGE was a complete flop from what I understand, it's basically defunct now right? Was a bizarre endeavor

 

[VλREN]

Yeah basically

 

[VλREN]

Unless am homeless and loose everything I literally don’t care

 

[INVERTER]

DOGE was a complete flop from what I understand, it's basically defunct now right? Was a bizarre endeavor

Yeah it seemed to only divert resources from certain sectors toward the military for fighting in the middle east.

Where I worked we were getting cryptic emails that were threatening layoffs and such but we were offered a deal if we quit... I took it and found another job and it's been pretty good honestly.

 

[Skoga]

Not caring at all makes you end up as a NEET like me

 

[uncomfortablecel225]

I've struggled to care about anything in my entire life.