exactly
i dont want to insult you ,
but once your brain is wired to think like a consumer ,
you will always find a way to procrastinate .
Ive been off this site for several weeks now
and i found other ways to run away from reality .
I takes time to reverse this indoctrination .
Its just so easy to find a way out
and waste your time with useless shit .
Just like any other addiction ,
the longer and the more exsessive you use the internet , the harder it will be to leave it behind .
And im not only talking about the internet ,
im talking about procrastination as a whole .
After such a long time ,
it becomes part of your character, part of who you are .
And your free will atrophies and degenerates to nothing more than a little , silent voice in your
subconsciousness , annoying you and telling you that its not the right way to life .
You just have to follow that voice .
Your inner child .
its easier said than done ,
but you have to strengthen that voice .
And follow it .
That may be the meaning of Life ,
meaning that your Fate has been formed in
the first years of your Life .
And that Fate , that inner voice will stay with you .
The Choice being if you listen to that voice
or if you drown it out .
But it will come back and it will make you regret sooner or later .
Maybe if youre 50 and you realize
you have sold your soul for a kingdom of trash .
And that nothing you own
has any actual value .
Its all just a copy of a copy .
The ideas of someone else .
Games to get you addicted .
Songs someone else wrote .
Movies making you see life through the eyes of someone you will never be .
Thousands and thousand of posts and comments in an echo chamber full of people who dont really care about you .
Its a trap .
Consumerism leads to Procrastination
to make you complacent .
to make you weak .
To make you take the role of the observer in Life .
As a mere statist .
Its better to listen to that little voice in your head
and try to build something with your own hands .
Out of your own will .
It may be pathetic to others ,
but its a thousand times better than running away
and letting yourself become the slave
to someone elses reality .
Something tangible , something of actual worth .
Not just endless repetition .
something that makes you proud .
like you accomplished something .
fuck im ranting again
why do i always have to make posts like this fuck my life
it feels like im talking to myself
