Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I'm still depressed, have no interest in anything, find everything pointless, have no energy, am anxious, avoidant of people etc... But that's because I've been like this throughout the formative years of my life, so that's become my normal and it hasn't stopped for more than a decade.
But I haven't had a reason to be depressed for more than 2 years.
I'm not bullied. I don't interact with anyone at all so no negative emotions or anxiety from that, I just stay in my house for months since the quarantine, it's wonderful (no chances of walking into people I dread walking into if I don't leave the house). I'm not even THAT bothered about being an incel, I have episodes of being bummed about it and posting here a lot, and then for a while I kinda forget about it (until I'm horny and feeling the need for love again). Other than that I also get along very well with my parents nowadays. I have a wonderful cat that I love more than life itself. I don't have to wageslave for another 10 months so that's wonderful (though I have to finish this shitty fucking degree and the fucking master's thesis and that will suck, but maybe it will be online this time due to quarantine, though professors take that as a challenge to assign more tasks).
Really, my life seems to be great. I get to spend 16 hours a day in bed with my laptop, which is literally the only thing in this life for me that is comfy and pleasant and doesn't feel like effort and a huge energy drain . It's great, I also get to play with my cat a lot, I get to interact with my parents on very friendly and loving terms (despite all the horrible shit that I put them through when I was a drunk). If I could even find something that interests me in this life, some passion or something, I'd be living a 10/10 life. Well, at least until I have to wageslave. But if I found a passion that could replace wageslaving, ohh boy that would be heaven. No such luck though, I've tried to find a passion for years.
But I haven't had a reason to be depressed for more than 2 years.
I'm not bullied. I don't interact with anyone at all so no negative emotions or anxiety from that, I just stay in my house for months since the quarantine, it's wonderful (no chances of walking into people I dread walking into if I don't leave the house). I'm not even THAT bothered about being an incel, I have episodes of being bummed about it and posting here a lot, and then for a while I kinda forget about it (until I'm horny and feeling the need for love again). Other than that I also get along very well with my parents nowadays. I have a wonderful cat that I love more than life itself. I don't have to wageslave for another 10 months so that's wonderful (though I have to finish this shitty fucking degree and the fucking master's thesis and that will suck, but maybe it will be online this time due to quarantine, though professors take that as a challenge to assign more tasks).
Really, my life seems to be great. I get to spend 16 hours a day in bed with my laptop, which is literally the only thing in this life for me that is comfy and pleasant and doesn't feel like effort and a huge energy drain . It's great, I also get to play with my cat a lot, I get to interact with my parents on very friendly and loving terms (despite all the horrible shit that I put them through when I was a drunk). If I could even find something that interests me in this life, some passion or something, I'd be living a 10/10 life. Well, at least until I have to wageslave. But if I found a passion that could replace wageslaving, ohh boy that would be heaven. No such luck though, I've tried to find a passion for years.
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