Do you think as time goes on you’ll be willing to accept a painful suicide if it’s your only way out?

[Clavicus Vile]

I’ve spent so much time trying to find the perfect peaceful means of suicide, but it just doesn’t exist if you don’t have guns or anesthesia.

To get out of this it will simply have to be brutal, I’ve had to come to accept this fact. Nothing about this life has been easy, not even ending it will get to be easy. I gave up on trying to jump because it was too scary and too much out of my control in that scenario.

I’ve been researching the heart and the thoracic arota and its location, how to penetrate it through the ribs, etc.

My plan is for one day where I’m at my absolute lowest. I’ll wipe my devices clean, and then shove the knife into my heart as quickly and deep as I can. Will be over fast.

But this won’t happen for a long time, I first wanna see if I can get neetbux. It at least helps me feel a hell of a lot better knowing I have a plan rather than being without one.

“But why don’t you just get it over with then”, it’s not so simple. Nothing about it is that simple. Otherwise we’d all be long dead and gone and this forum wouldn’t be a thing anymore.

 

[AutistSupremacist]

I don't really want to kill myself tho

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

Probably.

 

[SupremeFroggy]

I’ve spent so much time trying to find the perfect peaceful means of suicide, but it just doesn’t exist if you don’t have guns or anesthesia.

What about helium?

It at least helps me feel a hell of a lot better knowing I have a plan rather than being without one.

I relate to the relief of having a way out. So yes I'd pick a painful method if needed.

 

[VλREN]

Hopefully

It’s very VERY hard to do

 

[SirDave]

You actually remain conscious for a fairly long time after getting shot/stabbed in the heart. Suicide by train - decapitation or blunt force to the head - is probably quickest and easiest method beside gun.

 

[Eastwest404]

I’ve spent so much time trying to find the perfect peaceful means of suicide, but it just doesn’t exist if you don’t have guns or anesthesia.

To get out of this it will simply have to be brutal, I’ve had to come to accept this fact. Nothing about this life has been easy, not even ending it will get to be easy. I gave up on trying to jump because it was too scary and too much out of my control in that scenario.

I’ve been researching the heart and the thoracic arota and its location, how to penetrate it through the ribs, etc.

My plan is for one day where I’m at my absolute lowest. I’ll wipe my devices clean, and then shove the knife into my heart as quickly and deep as I can. Will be over fast.

But this won’t happen for a long time, I first wanna see if I can get neetbux. It at least helps me feel a hell of a lot better knowing I have a plan rather than being without one.

“But why don’t you just get it over with then”, it’s not so simple. Nothing about it is that simple. Otherwise we’d all be long dead and gone and this forum wouldn’t be a thing anymore.

This thread was posted on my birthday weeks ago. I found this prophetic, in a way, ERing became my Roman empire to think about every day (at least once)

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I have already accepted my death is going to be painful, and who knows, maybe I will even survive the aftermath of the plan.