Hahahaha i remember my bluepill time... oh so ridiculous i swear hahaha i thought i actually looked good and was trying to approach women or standing next to women so maybe they approach me or give me signs... oh god shame on me for that time
i was happier for sure
I was never blue pillled. The only time I started thinking about how I looked was when I noticed I looked really fucked up from the side. It went downhill from there.
Yeah I went from blue to red in 1 day, I was so brainwashed I almost vomitted once during transition ngl
I cringe everytime i remember it. The amount of time being wasted on watching personality and approach maxxing guides... JFL
E
How can this be? Blackpill made everything so easy, nothing my fault, just inevitable genetic judgement. While bluepill enforces "everything is your fault" self-destructive worldview.
I always tought i was good looking until i found out about my subhuman sideview.
I think i had some kind of realisation around 15/16
I don't remember it that clearly
but it just struck my mind suddenly and I kinda felt like I lost a part of me physically, you could say that I'm dead inside ha-ha
feel like that ever since but got used to it over the years, maybe the blue pill leaked outside of my body or something kek
i'm speaking about realising how the world works in general, not only about femoids
that was when i first started to have ANY kind of suicidal thoughts, wouldn't even think about it for a second before
I don't feel suicidal tho, way to early for that
tl;dr
kys, it's pointless anyway
I don't remember it that clearly
but it just struck my mind suddenly and I kinda felt like I lost a part of me physically, you could say that I'm dead inside ha-ha
feel like that ever since but got used to it over the years, maybe the blue pill leaked outside of my body or something kek
i'm speaking about realising how the world works in general, not only about femoids
that was when i first started to have ANY kind of suicidal thoughts, wouldn't even think about it for a second before
I don't feel suicidal tho, way to early for that
tl;dr
kys, it's pointless anyway
With the bluepill i had hope with blackpill i realize im not good looking and how even more shit this world is..
it may not be my fault but i still feel and know exactly why people treat ugly males a certain way...
bluepill told me it was my personality
How old are you now boyo
Was never bluepilled. Earliest memories were foids congregating among the most attractive boys, the weirdos/outcasts congregating among themselves. Normies only associating with each other. etcetc
Elementary was a big blackpill if you were awake.
Elementary was a big blackpill if you were awake.
E
Full realisation of blackpill makes you confident, it never meant to be self-destructive. You are confident because you did everything alright. It's looks that failed. We are here to cope anyway, and when you have a feeling of it being enough, you always can become a new hERo. But until you do this, through all our copes, we still have to enojoy life. Sexless, and thus pointless, but just a little, we have to enjoy it still.With the bluepill i had hope with blackpill i realize im not good looking and how even more shit this world is..
it may not be my fault but i still feel and know exactly why people treat ugly males a certain way...
bluepill told me it was my personality
To be honest I was carefree and little happier and I even try asking girls out even though none of them said yes example two but one never show up at the place we agreed on and ignore all my texts on top of that and other one gave me a fake address so I can pick her up for dinner date. Hell I was happy when I was ignorant but once I swallow that truthpill I realize it was fucking over when it came to dating and relationship for me !!!!
Precisely.
By the 3rd grade I was slightly blackpilled: The looks hierarchy is apparent. You could tell instinctively who was cool and popular.
By the 5th grade I was very blackpilled: I threw a basketball at a girls head during recess (my idea of a joke) and got suspended. Guess what? The next day she ended up being extremely nice to me like never before. That's abuse theory in action. Females like to be abused and love abusers.
By the 8th grade you should be 100% blackpilled: The difference is back then we did not dwell about it.
The blackpill during childhood is more like an instinct that you know deep down within your bones, but it never reaches your thoughts.
I was never bluepilled since my parents were always realistic with how I looked and how I presented myself and how others looked/behaved. They were always truthful about how cruel this world is and how shallow a lot of people are.
I remember
Back then i still thought that girls dont like me because of my personality, so i tried to become a saint, literally
It fucked me up so bad, because i swallowed down everything, i was only positive, never said anything bad, never did anything bad, lived " you before me ", and was the nicest guy ever
I got such a fullblown depression by living like this, which then became a panic disorder, and then a general anxiety disorder with derealisation
And even though i was the nicest guy ever, girls still did not like me
So i was there, with a ruined mental health, having to swallow the blackpill
Back then i still thought that girls dont like me because of my personality, so i tried to become a saint, literally
It fucked me up so bad, because i swallowed down everything, i was only positive, never said anything bad, never did anything bad, lived " you before me ", and was the nicest guy ever
I got such a fullblown depression by living like this, which then became a panic disorder, and then a general anxiety disorder with derealisation
And even though i was the nicest guy ever, girls still did not like me
So i was there, with a ruined mental health, having to swallow the blackpill
I vividly remember asking on Yahoo answers if Holocaust denial was really a thing. I never remember a time where I believed I could land a female by being "myself".
I was blackpilled before I was old enough to be incel. I got redpilled by Trayvon Martin's murder just like DR.
I was blackpilled before I was old enough to be incel. I got redpilled by Trayvon Martin's murder just like DR.
Last edited:
what happened OP
Similar threads
Friezacel
Users who are viewing this thread
