Venting Do you get more depressed the older you get?

[Curious0]

I just recently turned 18 and I'm currently more depressed than I ever was before. If you get 2% more depressed in 1 year of life, then I'd be suicidal at 30.
I don't know if my life will get better after I leave school or if it will get worse.
I might meet people that actually like me, and since I don't have to go to school I won't be surrounded by people that despise me. On the other hand, I might get more depressed, because I won't even meet people and will be isolated completely. I may have no human interaction besides talking to my family members occasionally. I will see teenagers on the street and be reminded about the fact, that I did not really have a youth, I did not do anything that teenagers do. I will be reminded about the fact that me and a girl will never have first's together- the first laying on the ground at night looking at the stars, the first kiss, the first sex. If I'd try to do so, I will now be called a pedophile, even though I feel like I'm trapped in a 13 year old's body.
I'm scared that my planned copes in the future will not feel as good as I imagined.
By the way, I'm not saying I have depression. However, I felt really depressed the past weeks and this feeling is successively increasing.
Did your general happiness decrease the older you got? At what age did it start?

 

[grayjedi90]

I just recently turned 18 and I'm currently more depressed than I ever was before. If you get 2% more depressed in 1 year of life, then I'd be suicidal at 30.
I don't know if my life will get better after I leave school or if it will get worse.
I might meet people that actually like me, and since I don't have to go to school I won't be surrounded by people that despise me. On the other hand, I might get more depressed, because I won't even meet people and will be isolated completely. I may have no human interaction besides talking to my family members occasionally. I will see teenagers on the street and be reminded about the fact, that I did not really have a youth, I did not do anything that teenagers do. I will be reminded about the fact that me and a girl will never have first's together- the first laying on the ground at night looking at the stars, the first kiss, the first sex. If I'd try to do so, I will now be called a pedophile, even though I feel like I'm trapped in a 13 year old's body.
I'm scared that my planned copes in the future will not feel as good as I imagined.
By the way, I'm not saying I have depression. However, I felt really depressed the past weeks and this feeling is successively increasing.
Did your general happiness decrease the older you got? At what age did it start?

I got worse thats for sure. Yeseterday was my birthday and now im 28. I have no friends and never had a girlfriend. In general i just can't connect or relate with other people not just femoids. I worked severals years a shit job so i could move out of my parents basement. After i couldn't take it anymore working as a wageslave in this shit job i tried to moneymaxx. Quit my job went studying computer engineering only to realize that im too dumb for advanced math and physics and after two semester i quit it.

Now im searching for the next wageslave job but to behonest i can't even be bothered. My money savings will last me until april or so. I really lost the last bit of hope or motivation to do anything anymore.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

it gets much worse but it's not "always on" if that makes sense, you can cope pretty well if you get a good job, make money, get your own place, etc....
but eventually you'll hit a critical point like having hopes about ascending again, or realising the passage of time, and it's worse the older you are

right now i don't have single silent moment and cannot sleep, because i both feel that i've wasted too much time coping and focusing on work AND feeling that hopes and the dashed hopes that follow are going to kill me if I don't either stop falling for it or ascend. whatever i felt at 18-25 was a joke compared to this. a bunch of crocodile tears followed by sleeping like a baby.

 

[grayjedi90]

it gets much worse but it's not "always on" if that makes sense, you can cope pretty well if you get a good job, make money, get your own place, etc....
but eventually you'll hit a critical point like having hopes about ascending again, or realising the passage of time, and it's worse the older you are

right now i don't have single silent moment and cannot sleep, because i both feel that i've wasted too much time coping and focusing on work AND feeling that hopes and the dashed hopes that follow are going to kill me if I don't either stop falling for it or ascend. whatever i felt at 18-25 was a joke compared to this. a bunch of crocodile tears followed by sleeping like a baby.

i never understood why people are so work obsessed

 

[Gone Coping]

i turned 29 this year, i think every birthday just hammers it home that you're totally fucked. Every year the already slim chances of ascending falls, you also get to see your contemporaries succeeding where you fail in regards to starting families, advancing in their careers etc. Age is a blackhole you can't escape from.

 

[Grotesque]

It got better for me because you stop giving a fuck.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

i never understood why people are so work obsessed

whenever i go full bore on a project i always hallucinate two things:
- that the project will be very easy and i will get it done in a short, predictable amount of time
- that it will fix everything wrong with my life, provide status/meaning/money/etc

 

[oldcel75]

I accepted the blackpill 20 years ago. I know that I cannot be loved like I cannot jump 10 meters. So fuck it, I have my copes.

 

[grayjedi90]

whenever i go full bore on a project i always hallucinate two things:
- that the project will be very easy and i will get it done in a short, predictable amount of time
- that it will fix everything wrong with my life, provide status/meaning/money/etc

my problem is that im low iq and talentless so moneymaxxing is kinda hard/impossible lol

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

i turned 29 this year, i think every birthday just hammers it home that you're totally fucked. Every year the already slim chances of ascending falls, you also get to see your contemporaries succeeding where you fail in regards to starting families, advancing in their careers etc. Age is a blackhole you can't escape from.

birthdays really are hell, i spent the last one at my parents trying to make a day of it, rather than alone and pretending it's any other day, i don't think that made it any better

my problem is that im low iq and talentless so moneymaxxing is kinda hard/impossible lol

you can get a web development job or something without advanced math and physics, you just need to find an in, like a connection or nepotism or just an employer that doesn't require a degree. then you do your best. it's what i did.

unfortunately when you're an incel fag everything goes wrong anyway, my main job stopped giving bonuses and raises a long time ago, and i've literally had like 70% of my money from a side deal just get stolen by a middleman, he spent it to fix up his car and maintain the status that i was trying to get.
if i had a gf now i think i could give her a fun and engaging lifestyle for like 2 months tops before all my money ran out. great place to be.

 

[grayjedi90]

like a connection or nepotism

lol i have no friends or social circle and im socially retarded rip it's ovER

 

[YungCell]

I just recently turned 18 and I'm currently more depressed than I ever was before. If you get 2% more depressed in 1 year of life, then I'd be suicidal at 30.
I don't know if my life will get better after I leave school or if it will get worse.
I might meet people that actually like me, and since I don't have to go to school I won't be surrounded by people that despise me. On the other hand, I might get more depressed, because I won't even meet people and will be isolated completely. I may have no human interaction besides talking to my family members occasionally. I will see teenagers on the street and be reminded about the fact, that I did not really have a youth, I did not do anything that teenagers do. I will be reminded about the fact that me and a girl will never have first's together- the first laying on the ground at night looking at the stars, the first kiss, the first sex. If I'd try to do so, I will now be called a pedophile, even though I feel like I'm trapped in a 13 year old's body.
I'm scared that my planned copes in the future will not feel as good as I imagined.
By the way, I'm not saying I have depression. However, I felt really depressed the past weeks and this feeling is successively increasing.
Did your general happiness decrease the older you got? At what age did it start?

It depends on the direction you take your life, you dont automatically get sadder when you age, if you take up hobbies that make you happier you will get happier and if you whine about how sad you are for 5 years you will get sadder. Its harder for incels to achieve happiness but its possible

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

lol i have no friends or social circle and im socially retarded rip it's ovER

you might be surprised if you check through relatives, i know it feels desperate but that was my situation

 

[imdeadtbh]

yes you become full of regret. every past decision you think about you will say to yourself "wow if could have done that my life would be so much better". it sucks you are gonna be like that till you die.

 

[Evildoer]

I'm resistant to depression.

 

[grayjedi90]

you might be surprised if you check through relatives, i know it feels desperate but that was my situation

They all hate me because im a subhuman and they are better than me in every way possible

 

[caudino]

went studying computer engineering only to realize that im too dumb for advanced math and physics

there are books, training materials, videos, development tools, etc. online. Courses too. I don't think advanced math or physics are needed

as for getting depressed the older you get; it depends on many factors, e.g. getting 25 or 30 can be depressing, but older ages, 40, 45, maybe won't be a problem. By that age one probably has accepted his situation. There can be exceptions though

 

[grayjedi90]

there are books, training materials, videos, development tools, etc. online. Courses too. I don't think advanced math or physics are needed

as for getting depressed the older you get; it depends on many factors, e.g. getting 25 or 30 can be depressing, but older ages, 40, 45, maybe won't be a problem. By that age one probably has accepted his situation. There can be exceptions though

Do you really think i have not tried all those to pass the exams? lol
If it's getting worse now why should it be better in the future when im getting older and my body gets weaker and sicker?

 

[caudino]

Do you really think i have not tried all those to pass the exams? lol

I'm sorry to hear that! Still, I noticed there's a request, a need for software developers, computer engineers (I'm in Europe, don't know the US side). And not all of them are math experts! There may be easier jobs, test automation and the like. Or lower-tier dev jobs

If it's getting worse now why should it be better in the future when im getting older and my body gets weaker and sicker?

just to be sure, we are talking about inceldom, being alone, right? Well, unfortunately I can only parrot what I said above: acceptance. Maybe lower T? One should accept his situation. It's almost like destiny. Wouldn't you agree?
in all honesty though, when you get old, sick, weak, and you have absolutely nobody (parents dead, no children of course), that sounds quite horrible

 

[Figthcel]

yes you become full of regret. every past decision you think about you will say to yourself "wow if could have done that my life would be so much better". it sucks you are gonna be like that till you die.

This

At some point you run out of motivation to try anything and to even cope.

Iam over 30 and I need stuff to get better fast or I am gonna just run away or something.

 

[grayjedi90]

I'm sorry to hear that! Still, I noticed there's a request, a need for software developers, computer engineers (I'm in Europe, don't know the US side). And not all of them are math experts! There may be easier jobs, test automation and the like. Or lower-tier dev jobs

Where do you find those jobs? Everything i find is jobs where you need to have years long training behind you and papers to show off, btw im from germany. I never see that somebody who wants to hire people with no experience to learn/educate/train them. They just search for the finished package, young 25 years old or so and with 36 years work experience in this field lol

 

[Henry de Montherlant]

I'm depressed since always. I don't know if it gets worse or not, it's just there. It's in my family anyway.

 

[Deleted member 6101]

Nah- I completely gave up at 18, before the despair set it, and embraced nihilism. Due to that, I've never actually been depressed, in the real sense of the word, but I'll still have moments where all the emotional baggage drops hard for a day or two every other month.

 

[Haircutbro]

I have depression since i was 12, even got it diagnosed by a few docs
Either way, it gets worse yes
Way worse because after that long of a time, your body stops working, it doesnt want you to reproduce and the symptoms of that are hard