Brutal Do you fear going insane one day?

[TheHungariancel]

(I’m not talking about going ER here)

Are you prone to panic attacks? Do you fear that one day you’ll lose your mind because of your inceldom?

A few days ago in the morning I had a terrible panic attack: the moment I opened my eyes I felt like I was going to die. I was extremely anxious, I was trembling and started sweating in my bed. It was absolutely horrible.

After it ended, I was completely numb for the whole day and had brutal brain fog. I couldn’t function properly at all, I lost my appetite and ate pretty much nothing that day.

When I was in high school, I took LSA and had a bad trip: I was close to jumping out of the window, worst day of my life ever. (I might write the whole story in another post)

Personally I’ve always been prone to panic and extreme anxiety, but the loneliness, hopelessness and lack of copes make it much worse.

I fear that one day the mental misery will be so bad I’ll have to resort to end my life because of it.

 

[killchad]

I think I'm already going insane. There is a window at the back of my head which people can look into and see my thoughts so I constantly have to turn around or put my hand on the back of my head. I also feel like an invisible someone is constantly watching me.

 

[twisted]

Yeah I fear that my loneliness will lead to even more mental deterioration which is why I try to stay healthy to some degree

 

[m3nt4Lbl0ck3d]

Absolutely. I question how intact my actual "sanity" is almost every other day. I get my good days and my bad days. But sometimes I get those unbearable days and feel like a ticking time bomb.

 

[Runt171]

I think I'm already going insane. There is a window at the back of my head which people can look into and see my thoughts so I constantly have to turn around or put my hand on the back of my head. I also feel like an invisible someone is constantly watching me.

Mirin schizophrenia

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

Yeah I fear that my loneliness will lead to even more mental deterioration which is why I try to stay healthy to some degree

I can already feel myself slowly deteriorating mentally from everything

 

[killchad]

Mirin schizophrenia

It's a lot better than a few months ago I think I'm healing

 

[Stupid Clown]

I yearn for it.

 

[killchad]

Mirin schizophrenia

I'm not schizo because I don't hear or see anything

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

I yearn for it.

I'm saner than I should be given everything I've been through

 

[Runt171]

I feel like I have been losing my sanity slowly for years

Ive gotten alot more paranoid over the The last few years Especially
even the most normal shit will sometimes have me unreasonably paranoid

The other day one of my friends randomly invited me to come out and meet him and our other friend I dont really see anymore because he found a chill place we could go to or some shit

But I was genuinely thinking they were going to jump me or kill me and I was considering bringing a knife with me just in case which is retarded

I cant remember much else but I remember at one point that my mum bought me vitamins or some shit and I thought she was poisoning me with them because I had unrelated pains in my body at the time

 

[Runt171]

I'm not schizo because I don't hear or see anything

What you described it literally some schizophrenic shit man

I think I might be slightly schizo myself tbh

 

[killchad]

What you described it literally some schizophrenic shit man

I think I might be slightly schizo myself tbh

I know but I'm not actually seeing or hearing stuff, I just feel them. It's kinda hard to explain.

 

[Keulut]

I'm close to losing it and I wish I got a hammer around me when the moment comes to break up some skulls. As for brain fog I got it nearly all the time.

 

[TheHungariancel]

I yearn for it.

Believe me brother, you don’t want to yearn for it. It’s difficult to describe how horrible a panic attack can be.

 

[Runt171]

I know but I'm not actually seeing or hearing stuff, I just feel them. It's kinda hard to explain.

You dont have to see or hear stuff
Feeling or thinking things like what you said is apart of schizophrenia too

You should look into it

Ive had similar things happen to me but normally I would only have strange thoughts like that when I used to smoke weed

 

[killchad]

You dont have to see or hear stuff
Feeling or thinking things like what you said is apart of schizophrenia too

You should look into it

It's getting better, if I go to a doctor or something they'll just prescribe me with jewpills

 

[Wrath]

already have

 

[Runt171]

It's getting better, if I go to a doctor or something they'll just prescribe me with jewpills

Yeah I guess

Do you know if theres certain things that make it worse for you or is it completely random??

 

[Runt171]

already have

JoinedMar 13, 2025Posts46,008

 

[TheHungariancel]

I feel like I have been losing my sanity slowly for years

Ive gotten alot more paranoid over the The last few years Especially
even the most normal shit will sometimes have me unreasonably paranoid

The other day one of my friends randomly invited me to come out and meet him and our other friend I dont really see anymore because he found a chill place we could go to or some shit

But I was genuinely thinking they were going to jump me or kill me and I was considering bringing a knife with me just in case which is retarded

I cant remember much else but I remember at one point that my mum bought me vitamins or some shit and I thought she was poisoning me with them because I had unrelated pains in my body at the time

Sounds quite schizophrenic for me. So brutal man.

 

[Runt171]

Sounds quite schizophrenic for me. So brutal man.

Yeah I dont think I could be diagnosed though since It isn’t a constant problem

I think I just get these types of thoughts when Im very stressed

 

[smegma producer]

if you posses the fear or the awareness that you might become insane, then you will most likely not become insane.

 

[D. B. Gooner]

I have already developed weird mannerisms from not consistantly interacting with people for years. I think I will never be crazy from my perspective, but will I ever be perceived as a nutjob, definitely.

 

[TheHungariancel]

if you posses the fear or the awareness that you might become insane, then you will most likely not become insane.

I hope you’re right.

I have already developed weird mannerisms from not consistantly interacting with people for years.

I think it’s almost universal for us. I don’t know if it’s even reversible at this point.

 

[LWii]

Ive been sent to the psych ward for trying to stab my mom

 

[killchad]

Yeah I guess

Do you know if theres certain things that make it worse for you or is it completely random??

Lack of IRL interactions with humans makes it really worse. Staying too much inside my house too. Weirdly, watching anime or reading fiction really made it worst for me because my brain was starting to think I somehow exist in the fictional world as an observer or something.

 

[RandomGuy]

Jews are insane.

 

[TheHungariancel]

Ive been sent to the psych ward for trying to stab my mom

This is crazy. Could you elaborate on this?

 

[killchad]

Lack of IRL interactions with humans makes it really worse. Staying too much inside my house too. Weirdly, watching anime or reading fiction really made it worst for me because my brain was starting to think I somehow exist in the fictional world as an observer or something.

It made anime more enjoyable though I actually thought the characters were real or something.

 

[Runt171]

Lack of IRL interactions with humans makes it really worse. Staying too much inside my house too. Weirdly, watching anime or reading fiction really made it worst for me because my brain was starting to think I somehow exist in the fictional world as an observer or something.

How come your getting better then??

 

[D. B. Gooner]

Ive been sent to the psych ward for trying to stab my mom

Not judging, that sucks, they probably forced jew pills down your throat. An incel whose family hates him is truly alone in this world. I'm lucky mine don't hate me, though we are not close at all.

 

[LWii]

This is crazy. Could you elaborate on this?

Was in college. I stopped replying to my parents, or anyone else. Stopped going to class. At some point, they started to worried so they came to look for me. When they tried to enter my appartment, i ran toward them with my knife, saying i would kill them if they approch me. Then i managed to escape. They called the cops. I fleed in a random direction for a few hours, without any goals. Then the psychosis went down. I realize what i did. Came back to my parents, and the police, and they sent me straight to the psych ward.

 

[smegma producer]

I hope you’re right.

Most that go insane never or barley had their sanity to begin with. Waking up and just going crazy rarely happens.

 

[LWii]

they probably forced jew pills down your throat

They did for a moment then i made it clear that i would stop taking meds. They agreed as long as my behavior stay stable

An incel whose family hates him is truly alone in this world

They dont hate me actually. They dont understand me, but they have been the only supportive people in my life.
I just had a schizo episode

 

[killchad]

How come your getting better then??

I've started going to college so that made it somewhat better. I made some friends for the first time in my life.

 

[TheHungariancel]

They dont hate me actually. They dont understand me, but they have been the only supportive people in my life.
I just had a schizo episode

You’re incredibly lucky they’re supportive. How could you even function properly in your day to day life with your condition?

I've started going to college so that made it somewhat better. I made some friends for the first time in my life.

That’s very good brother! You’re probably not completely hopeless.

 

[Anarcho Nihilist]

(I’m not talking about going ER here)

Are you prone to panic attacks? Do you fear that one day you’ll lose your mind because of your inceldom?

A few days ago in the morning I had a terrible panic attack: the moment I opened my eyes I felt like I was going to die. I was extremely anxious, I was trembling and started sweating in my bed. It was absolutely horrible.

After it ended, I was completely numb for the whole day and had brutal brain fog. I couldn’t function properly at all, I lost my appetite and ate pretty much nothing that day.

When I was in high school, I took LSA and had a bad trip: I was close to jumping out of the window, worst day of my life ever. (I might write the whole story in another post)

Personally I’ve always been prone to panic and extreme anxiety, but the loneliness, hopelessness and lack of copes make it much worse.

I fear that one day the mental misery will be so bad I’ll have to resort to end my life because of it.

I suffer more from despondency than panic. Anyway, if I get tired of living, I'll make a rope.

 

[Drekavac]

yes of course

 

[TheHungariancel]

I suffer more from despondency than panic. Anyway, if I get tired of living, I'll make a rope.

Despondency is a really good word to describe inceldom in general. Hopelessness is pretty much a default state of being for me, which sometimes gets intense.

 

[Supreme mogger]

Im totally going insane because im so isolated.

 

[Friezacel]

I already am

 

[WatchMeBleedOnTV]

I think i'm already down the path of insanity, i'm already planning to kill myself in a few years because i don't want to live past my late 20s

 

[poorenglishcel]

I have already developed weird mannerisms

 

[WatchMeBleedOnTV]

Ive been sent to the psych ward for trying to stab my mom

brutal

 

[Lt. Hell]

I think everyone at work talks and laughs about me behind my back. I don’t understand relationships and I have a lot of problems when I need to interact with a stranger.

All this shit probably will get worse over time because I spent all my free time closed alone in my home.

 

[Leon98]

Yes and I’m already insane to a degree

 

[ParasiteToSociety]

I already am

 

[shishiowasright]

Definitely became more paranoid around late 2024

 

[Grodd]

Yeah I fear that my loneliness will lead to even more mental deterioration which is why I try to stay healthy to some degree