do you ever feel like you're living life on spectator mode

[jerrycan dan]

I am so isolated from everything. I sit at home, looking out my window and reading about random stuff on the internet like a humungous autist. When I go outside everything good and bad that happens is completely outside of my control, if somebody has a car accident or a fight I'm just watching. Nobody talks to me irl except for my family. When I am home alone I shout, laugh and yell about stuff I read or think about and nobody answers, nobody tells me to shut up. I am able to read about history that has already happened on the internet and I am watching that history continue to transpire today, waiting for everything to go shit on the news. When I shower I think about the world and the fact I am alive in it, reducing that fact to the most basic summed-up format possible. I am here experiencing things and then I will die. I am experiencing being me, watching stuff, observing stuff, LDARing alone like an invisible man. Thinking about everything that I read about and see going on in this world like that one meme of the wojack in the shower thinking about space and world events. I am completely helpless and unable to stop any major happenings, I can only watch. This is spectator mode.

 

[Blacktarpill]

if somebody has a car accident or a fight I'm just watching.

I have this problem too. We should run away.

 

[narcissist]

Sometimes, I talk to myself a lot but I still feel in control

 

[Weed]

Take the spectator pill

 

[Insomniac]

For sure man. My dad and brother are always doing something and meeting new people while I rot in solitude. I do feel like I’m just a spectator in this crazy fucking world.

 

[Deleted member 12355]

What if life is a book a select few individuals were given the misfortunte to read as opposed to participate in? Take the oraclepill

 

[jerrycan dan]

What if life is a book a select few individuals were given the misfortunte to read as opposed to participate in? Take the oraclepill

didn't they do this with deformed people in ancient greece? indo-europeans were high iq in ancient times

 

[Deleted member 12355]

didn't they do this with deformed people in ancient greece? indo-europeans were high iq in ancient times

They did kek. They locked them up in a tower and let them think all day. Pretty woke ngl. Incels.is is the new oracle class

 

[Deleted member 14577]

I feel the same, it's like I'm spectating a degenerate game of Sims. I see all these people walk around and can't even fathom the life experiences they've had, it's like I am not the same species as them, like I exist in a seperate realm from them.

When I am home alone I shout, laugh and yell about stuff I read or think about and nobody answers, nobody tells me to shut up.

Bit strange but not insane, don't start doing it around people.

 

[Deleted member 4159]

It's horrible. I imagine this is what getting cucked (as in watching another guy fuck your bitch) feels like.

 

[Brahcel]

Each time I leave my house, it feels like I went into the matrix

 

[Shower_Taker]

Very relatable post OP, I do and feel most of the things you mentioned, even the part about shouting and laughing and reacting loudly while home alone - I feel I’d go insane without doing so.

I wouldn’t call it spectator mode in my case though, it’s more like “who invited this loser to life” mode.

 

[Deleted member 265]

y-yes onii-chan but can you s-spectate me?

 

[katsuna]

I am just like that too OP. I've always felt like a shadow. It brings me a little comfort though to know that I am not the only one who is living life on spectator mode.

 

[jerrycan dan]

y-yes onii-chan but can you s-spectate me?

avi halo makes it work

 

[hunchback]

lmao no, I'm on nightmare mode

 

[Deleted member 5712]

I am just like that too OP. I've always felt like a shadow. It brings me a little comfort though to know that I am not the only one who is living life on spectator mode.

 

[Animas]

well it feels sometimes like i’m perpetually sitting around wishing that things were better, and not enjoying the moment cuz i wish it was better, so it’s almost a lose lose scenario, i never enjoy anything much even if it’s awesome and i can’t do anything to get a girl and change it, not bullshit PUA, not anything

 

[Blacktarpill]

I just remembered this:
Sometimes i go to shops etc. and i look at the items they have. Then i say to myself ''Hmm, i don't need this.'' or ''that looks really bad, who buys this shit''. Then i immediately buy them.

 

[Ritalincel]

no man

 

[Konon]

lmao no, I'm on nightmare mode

 

[IamJacksBrokenHeart]

I think this way of thinking is further developed by Consumerism .
Because we dont actually build stuff and change the world around us , instead we consume and spectate others doing it .

Immerse ourselves in Videogames and watch our Character become a hero or a villain .
Watch movies and identify with the Protagonist .
Listen to Music to " outsource our Feelings " , letting the Artist express what we forgot how to express ourselves ( Theres a Reason why Rap Music is so popular right now , its overly masculine and Men today are in a Crisis of Masculinity , too afraid to act out their urges , so they gotta compensate and " outsource " ) .
Watching porn instead of having Sex and making ourself a spectator .
Sitting in front of the TV , watching the world on the News fall apart while passively processing it .

This way of living is making us become spectators , letting ourselves become part of the Reality of someone else or some Industry .
Living like this is like getting spiritually dominated by someone else .

Instead of cultivating our own Reality and taking responsibility for our lifes , we let ourselves become Spectators .

And this formula , this worldview gets so deeply ingrained in our Ego , as part of our Character , we dont even notice it anymore .

We dont change , build or manipulate the world around us anymore , we are passive receptors in the Age of Consumerism .

When we die , all that'll be left of us will be a giant Heap of Plastic and Pollution .

 

[Admiral_Arkantos]

Indeed, I can relate. I feel out of touch with people.

I feel the same, it's like I'm spectating a degenerate game of Sims. I see all these people walk around and can't even fathom the life experiences they've had, it's like I am not the same species as them, like I exist in a separate realm from them.

 

[jerrycan dan]

I think this way of thinking is further developed by Consumerism .
Because we dont actually build stuff and change the world around us , instead we consume and spectate others doing it .

Immerse ourselves in Videogames and watch our Character become a hero or a villain .
Watch movies and identify with the Protagonist .
Listen to Music to " outsource our Feelings " , letting the Artist express what we forgot how to express ourselves ( Theres a Reason why Rap Music is so popular right now , its overly masculine and Men today are in a Crisis of Masculinity , too afraid to act out their urges , so they gotta compensate and " outsource " ) .
Watching porn instead of having Sex and making ourself a spectator .
Sitting in front of the TV , watching the world on the News fall apart while passively processing it .

This way of living is making us become spectators , letting ourselves become part of the Reality of someone else or some Industry .
Living like this is like getting spiritually dominated by someone else .

Instead of cultivating our own Reality and taking responsibility for our lifes , we let ourselves become Spectators .

And this formula , this worldview gets so deeply ingrained in our Ego , as part of our Character , we dont even notice it anymore .

We dont change , build or manipulate the world around us anymore , we are passive receptors in the Age of Consumerism .

When we die , all that'll be left of us will be a giant Heap of Plastic and Pollution .

high IQ

 

[Sans]

Not spectator mode, normally spectators aren’t slaves.

 

[bigantennaemay1]

I have always felt like I've been living in spectator mode. It's hard not to when you've been socially ostracized nearly your entire life for being unattractive and autistic.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

Yes I feel like im watching a simulation that Im not a part of