Yes, of course I fucking envy his life. He has literally everything I don't have. He has what I've always wanted. A family of my own with a loving wife.
He gets to experience the milestones in his children's lives. Being called ''daddy'' by your own child for the first time'', teaching them to walk, teaching them to ride a bike. I will never have that. I will die alone in darkness and they will only find me when the smell gets too bad.
But it doesn't matter too much, because I know for a fact I'm not reaching old age. I will be dead by 45, I feel it and I know it.