Do you dread running into people that knew you?

[Deleted member 7448]

I feel great anxiety, every time I am outside I fear running into anyone that ever knew me or of me. I'm pretty much agoraphobic now.

Shit, I was avoidant and anxious enough already in the past. Then in middle school I had to switch schools cause of bullying and several other embarrassments I've brought upon myself cause I was autistic and didn't even know what I was doing/saying, so much humiliating shit.

That was bad enough, but then I had to go and be an alcoholic when I started uni. Now there's so many people I dread running into: those from middle school, from highschool (cause I contacted 1 dude from highschool when I was an alcoholic and made a fool of myself, and one contacted me), from the first uni I dropped out from (this is the worst, when I became an alcoholic, some were neighbors and the walls were paper thin. These are the greatest PTSD moments from my life. Though they don't know them all, they know plenty), from the second uni when I used to go blackout drunk to uni/get drunk in the bathroom, drinking 1 liter and a half of wine in the bathroom).

I wish I could just start a new life somewhere, where no one knows me. But I love my parents (amplified by everything I've done to them when I was an alcoholic) and my cat so much, I can't live without them, I won't.

 

[Deleted member 21768]

No because everyone that knew me moved away long ago unless it is family and my family doesn't live near me.

 

[Pengwin]

Yes, I try to avoid them as much as I can.

 

[Deleted member 6214]

Yes, I try to avoid them as much as I can.

 

[ThoughtfulCel]

I already beat the person/people i'd hate to run into to death.

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[Mainländer]

Yes bro. It's awkward not to know whether to greet them or not. But usually they don't greet me anyway.

 

[Haywire]

yes.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

Yes, I try to avoid them as much as I can.

 

[Lebensmüder]

Yes.

 

[Deleted member 17889]

"So what did you accomplish in life?"

"Nothing."

 

[Deleted member 24293]

Yes, I try to avoid them as much as I can.

Me too. Plus I'm so sick and tired of bullshit bluepill advice, I seriously just want to overdose on fentanyl or oxycodone and die.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

yes, i have this fear but power through it usually and approach the people i see and know, or did before we went nuts because of the flu

hilariously enough they often seem more awkward and reluctant than me, despite them being the more "socialized" one in theory, they actually have poorer initiative and look like they were the ones hoping to just sneak by me

jfl at pussy normies and their utter shit socializing that is more like political maneuvering than anything else, things are breaking down so hard that soon enough it won't even be weird or autistic at all to just "sneak by" acquintances and only ever interact with your proper, full, confirmed friends

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Me too. Plus I'm so sick and tired of bullshit bluepill advice, I seriously just want to overdose on fentanyl or oxycodone and die.

I wish I could walk around in a hood like the guy from your avatar, hiding my face so no one can recognize me.

yes, i have this fear but power through it usually and approach the people i see and know, or did before we went nuts because of the flu

hilariously enough they often seem more awkward and reluctant than me, despite them being the more "socialized" one in theory, they actually have poorer initiative and look like they were the ones hoping to just sneak by me

jfl at pussy normies and their utter shit socializing that is more like political maneuvering than anything else, things are breaking down so hard that soon enough it won't even be weird or autistic at all to just "sneak by" acquintances and only ever interact with your proper, full, confirmed friends

From all your posts you sound so well-adjusted. It's upsetting that even someone like you is stuck like the rest of us.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

From all your posts you sound so well-adjusted. It's upsetting that even someone like you is stuck like the rest of us.

i know i try harder than most, but i am not really popular at my job at all or with random acquaintances, i just wing it and sometimes try to press the advantage on normies, which never works because they only care about their 100% confirmed friendos and no one else

 

[Deleted member 24293]

I wish I could walk around in a hood like the guy from your avatar, hiding my face so no one can recognize me.

Same.

 

[Over_this_Life]

Yes. Everyone i knew from high school is dead to me. I like to pretend the place burned down and i was the only survivor. So if i see someone i knew i avoid them at all costs

 

[cucksaar]

If you run into people you've known you should insult them. They've most likely treated you badly anyway.

 

[InMyCellInHell]

I do, but sadly I live in an area that still has a few people I knew from the past. They know I'm a loser and I made no attempt to hide it. They've moved on like I've said in other posts so my own failures and pathetic existence don't even phase me much anymore.

 

[Karlakarl]

Don't even talk about it. I wear a hat and a hoodie not to get noticed by anyone

 

[Deleted member 4159]

Yes. Whenever I'd return to my hometown, I would be super discrete about where I'd go and how I'd get there. Now with Covid I can just mask up.

 

[Deleted member 27161]

Yes

 

[RedLight]

Yes, I try to avoid them as much as I can.

 

[Gymcelled]

What doesn't make you anxious besides ldar'in?

 

[Macrocephalus]

Yes because that would imply some kind of interaction (a nod at least, or a conversation in the worst case) and I'd rather just be on my own

 

[GreyWorld]

I try to avoid them but some people get really mad when you do that. I used to have teachers pissed off at me in highschool when I didn't say Hi to them in the halls the next semester. Social Anxiety is a bitch and it seems like nobody understands it. It makes perfect sense to me and I couldn't imagine being social and wanting to be around people.

 

[your personality]

That's the good about ldaring and not trying to seek out people to talk to or putting yourself out there

 

[Transcended Trucel]

No because everyone that knew me moved away long ago unless it is family and my family doesn't live near me.

 

[Ecstasy]

My reputation is burned in every single school or work place I went to. Even thougu I improved gradually and I would be better off than I was for example in middle school, I would still have a pathetic af life. And even if they wouldnt laugh about who I am now, they would still remember what a cringey loser I was.

 

[Deleted member 24297]

No I love it actually.

I have accomplished nothing in my life. No hs, never been employed, no gf or sex, 100% rated disabledbuxx and I was inside the loony bin for 5 years so when they ask what Im doing and I tell them I recently got out they get so uncomfortable, akward or scared and I revel in that. I tell them about my fellow patients or myself if they insist and I just delight in them getting a knot in their stomach. I smile in their face knowing fully well I am a nobody with zero accomplishments that totally embraced loserhood. They try to flex on me and I sincerely congratulate them on their accomplishment without any resentment or jealousy (which is what they love) and just banter with them in my trainingpants and 2 euro aktion flipflops. They dont diminish my confidence they enhance it for some reason. I like being a steriotype of a person people hate and I fit every steriotype in society that are widely despised and I bear no illwill or jealousy toward them cause I dont care about being accomplished (in any sense). I just radiate positive energy, enthusiasm, true care and good banter. Their ego start to crumble cause normies predominantly do things to flex on others yet they in no way make me feel bad at all but genuinely happy for them. All their hardwork to pack a killerflex gets the totally opposite response and they dont know how to deal with that. Their cognitive dissonance feelz good but at the end of the day I dont care about making them feel bad cause I dont give a fuck about them one way or the other.

 

[Antisocialloner]

1000%. One of the things I avoid like a serious plague.

 

[Scr3am0u33ns]

Avoidance and evasion are the resulting skills acquired from a life of hideous traits and genes. So i dont dread it happening as i just dont allow it to.

 

[Deleted member 21324]

Yes, absolutely.

 

[Deleted member 27249]

I fear it with a passion. It would be so embarrassing seeing how much of a loser I've become

 

[Animecel2D]

There's no one like that around, so no. I’m fine.

 

[Ellsworth]

Back when I was unemployed yes. I feared running into people. Now I have a job so I don’t mind it or worry about it.