My father was a neverpresent workaholic selfmade man and we were upper middle class thanks to this, but my parents were kinda bad with money and just when I became a teenager he had to give up because the market changed and he became to old as well. He had some ideas how to adapt but he couldn't convince his partners. We only had our small house left in the end. Being "poor" and bullied was the utter torture in class. I was always an autistic outsider, but at that point it all downspiraled. I wish they'd invested the money to send me to a better school tbh.
To safe some time I just cite an earlier text of me:
My mother read me some books as a baby, my dad drove me sometimes to the boarding school I went and that's basically literally it. Sometimes I heard an unironic: "You go, boy! Whatever floats your boat. Am sure you are a great person and you'll do it". Sometimes my dad fantasized about me becoming a great athlete. JFL. They never really talked to me, never intervened anywhere and never read anything about my mental ilnessess as well to this day. I was send to the rapist when I was about 14. Because I became complicated and agressive. You can imagine how that went. The rapist asked stuff and let me tell him stuff. Where was the fucking point?
Notice, I was allowed to go to this boarding school, because I got a scholarchip for disadvantaged teenagers when i was 19, but I was to fucked up at that point already anyway.
I am not religious but my parents raised me with strong christian universal values. Exposed to the contradiction between the world how it protrayed itself to me in the news and in groundschool and how I was educated about it and my strong sense of righteousness (I think this has a lot to do with my autism. I probably took every lesson much to literal.) caused me to seclude myself from the world in an early age. Being already capable of understanding things like statistics etc. at young age, I took warnings of my parents for example about pedophiles far to serious as well, which induced early some kind of universal fear in me.
I also suffered from several healthproblems at the time my parents lost their business and I was pretty much left alone to deal with the jew doctors. My mom was more busy with her homeopathy and healing crystals, I guess...
Couldn't talk to her anyway, far to hystrionic.
Don't get me wrong my parents loved me, but they simply abandoned me psychologically after the kindergarden.
I think genuinely I could have become a chad light tbh, if my face, back, and psyche wouldn't have been fucked up by jew doctors and bad teachers. One grandpa is a chad. My parents are normies. My dads brother is a chad. I think he is either old mentalcel, blackpilled volcel or MGTOW now though, idk.
