Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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Look, this is completely crazy and stupid. I guess I'm so desperate that my imagination is all I have left.
I know girls don't like me. Hell, the way they talk to average guys and then the way they talk to me says it all.
But this is how my brain has always been, a bipolar daydreaming piece of shit. Some days I imagine I'm the worst person in the world, filthier than a beggar, and on other days I'm a golden god who every girl secretly loves and yet they are too shy to tell me.
Here's the really weird part: I know it's bullshit. Heck, this is the same feeling that I got when I was heavily into drinking and was into all that conspiracy bullshit. I never actually believed it, but reality is so boring that just imagining that this universe is a simulation or that this is sort of a Truman show type of situation that god created just for me or something - is much better than the boring, harsh truth. There's always this 0.01% of me that has this hope in his heart.
I know girls don't like me. Hell, the way they talk to average guys and then the way they talk to me says it all.
But this is how my brain has always been, a bipolar daydreaming piece of shit. Some days I imagine I'm the worst person in the world, filthier than a beggar, and on other days I'm a golden god who every girl secretly loves and yet they are too shy to tell me.
Here's the really weird part: I know it's bullshit. Heck, this is the same feeling that I got when I was heavily into drinking and was into all that conspiracy bullshit. I never actually believed it, but reality is so boring that just imagining that this universe is a simulation or that this is sort of a Truman show type of situation that god created just for me or something - is much better than the boring, harsh truth. There's always this 0.01% of me that has this hope in his heart.