I spent 80 fucking USD on an annual Brilliant subscription and my head hurts after trying to learn pre-algebra 
though I shit you not I scored 128 at mensa.dk/iqtest/. Also, my memory feels so shitty even my english (not main language) declined massively over the last 5 years to the point where I must use Deepl, Thesaurus, Cambridge Dictionary, and Grammarly to write more complex phrases than google queries not to mention speaking. I am unable to think in real time in other lang than my native and this is by far the most crucial thing when you want to learn to speak fluently any language.
Been considered the bright kid in primary school, never needed to develop the habit of learning things by myself on daily basis, had first problems with grades in secondary school and in high school it was a full slippery slope. It was either a miracle or a teacher's mistake that I passed in senior high. Nowadays, 1 year after graduating both my 2 friends who don't consider me weird and talk to me daily think I should go to college. Either if I want a decent job, not a blue collar minimum wage, or just want to gain a little bit of authority when discussing the Prussian education system which is one of the biggest social problems in Poland. If you had bad grades in school you are considered just too dumb to even have a right to speak on this topic. Period. I succumbed and decided to start learning maths to make another attempt at final exams. But maths feels so much harder than when I was younger. Math on finals in my country has 2 levels, basic and extended (easy and hard). The latter is usually two times higher scoring in college qualifications, doesn't have a minimum threshold to pass, and is optional. The former has a minimum threshold of 30% of available points and is obligatory. When covid came I literally stopped learning anything other than vocational courses and there was 0 chance to verify by teachers were my grades legit or not during distance learning. A year and a half passed like this. Exams occurred, scored 27% basic lvl To qualify for a worthwhile uni, I would have to score a minimum of 50% extended. I have to be at least 78th centile but currently am 17th. How do I mathmaxx? Are any other lifemaxx options other than going to uni when 40% of all your peers go there thanks to publicly funded higher education? To truly ascend I shouldn't go to average uni but best of em all, without this my education will be worthless as I won't be standing out from the crowd.
ps. I exhibit symptoms of adhd or asd though never been to therapy as it is too pricey also I heard of brain fog or daydreaming but nearly all of the articles on these feel like coaching bs
though I shit you not I scored 128 at mensa.dk/iqtest/. Also, my memory feels so shitty even my english (not main language) declined massively over the last 5 years to the point where I must use Deepl, Thesaurus, Cambridge Dictionary, and Grammarly to write more complex phrases than google queries not to mention speaking. I am unable to think in real time in other lang than my native and this is by far the most crucial thing when you want to learn to speak fluently any language.Been considered the bright kid in primary school, never needed to develop the habit of learning things by myself on daily basis, had first problems with grades in secondary school and in high school it was a full slippery slope. It was either a miracle or a teacher's mistake that I passed in senior high. Nowadays, 1 year after graduating both my 2 friends who don't consider me weird and talk to me daily think I should go to college. Either if I want a decent job, not a blue collar minimum wage, or just want to gain a little bit of authority when discussing the Prussian education system which is one of the biggest social problems in Poland. If you had bad grades in school you are considered just too dumb to even have a right to speak on this topic. Period. I succumbed and decided to start learning maths to make another attempt at final exams. But maths feels so much harder than when I was younger. Math on finals in my country has 2 levels, basic and extended (easy and hard). The latter is usually two times higher scoring in college qualifications, doesn't have a minimum threshold to pass, and is optional. The former has a minimum threshold of 30% of available points and is obligatory. When covid came I literally stopped learning anything other than vocational courses and there was 0 chance to verify by teachers were my grades legit or not during distance learning. A year and a half passed like this. Exams occurred, scored 27% basic lvl
To qualify for a worthwhile uni, I would have to score a minimum of 50% extended. I have to be at least 78th centile but currently am 17th. How do I mathmaxx? Are any other lifemaxx options other than going to uni when 40% of all your peers go there thanks to publicly funded higher education? To truly ascend I shouldn't go to average uni but best of em all, without this my education will be worthless as I won't be standing out from the crowd.ps. I exhibit symptoms of adhd or asd though never been to therapy as it is too pricey
also I heard of brain fog or daydreaming but nearly all of the articles on these feel like coaching bs
