Venting Despite coming to terms with my inceldom, I feel sad deep down

[copecopter]

I accepted the possibility that I might really stay a trucel forever and never ascend, especially since I am going to become 30 soon, but despite that acceptance, I still feel a baseline level of depression that cannot be medicated away.

Just to pat myself on the back and to not blame myself down the line, I will try everything under the sun to ascend. But, let's be real, I am probably not going to. It's better to know you tried your best than to assume you never tried to ascend.

There is a stereotype that an incel is evil and a bad person and deserves their predicament, and it's pervasive and I am scared not only I will be lonely and die alone but I will also be viewed as guilty for things I never did.

I am searching for the elusive Aha! moment where I fully cope with my situation and actually find a way to die having enjoyed life and lived a good life, even if as an incel. I will only live once, so I will not do a double whammy and hurt myself.

But, I feel like my brain chemistry has been permanently blunted and that I have permanently capped my brain chemicals and lost the capacity to be happy.

IDK MAN

 

[Dean_Benoit_93]

I'm over 30 and I don't think this feeling will ever truly go away. Having a girlfriend and having children is too deeply ingrained in us. Right now, I don't care about anything; death can visit me today.

 

[SnakeCel]

I accepted the possibility that I might really stay a trucel forever and never ascend, especially since I am going to become 30 soon, but despite that acceptance, I still feel a baseline level of depression that cannot be medicated away.

Just to pat myself on the back and to not blame myself down the line, I will try everything under the sun to ascend. But, let's be real, I am probably not going to. It's better to know you tried your best than to assume you never tried to ascend.

There is a stereotype that an incel is evil and a bad person and deserves their predicament, and it's pervasive and I am scared not only I will be lonely and die alone but I will also be viewed as guilty for things I never did.

I am searching for the elusive Aha! moment where I fully cope with my situation and actually find a way to die having enjoyed life and lived a good life, even if as an incel. I will only live once, so I will not do a double whammy and hurt myself.

But, I feel like my brain chemistry has been permanently blunted and that I have permanently capped my brain chemicals and lost the capacity to be happy.

IDK MAN

I started to cope with materialism. I just spend my time and money on myself much more now. I simply purchase things to give myself a small dopamine boost temporarily.