I wanted to change my reality, I just wanted to be happy once in my life. I can't take all this anymore, it's the same thing every week, rotting in bed. I can't stand these infernal mosquitoes. I'm going to set my house on fire so these wretched things die. I have a serious mental health problem, it's horrible. I'm going to bang my head against the wall to split it open so I can rest or die in my sleep. To think I can't even sleep, my head hurts so much and I have a terrible feeling of pain in my chest. I just want to be locked up for the rest of my life. I have to take care of my physical health, but I have no motivation or anything like that. I hate my life and everything in this damned world. I'm going to get gasoline and set my bed on fire. 
