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ovencel
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Thanksgiving break is over and it feels like no time has gone by. I haven't had a "break" or "vacation". I've just been rotting. Weekends are like this too and then I have to go back to dreaded work again. I feel more burned out every time. I swear the only part I actually enjoy is driving home at the end of the week. Everything else is shit. Getting high (not even fun when you do it everyday), riding my bike (hardly more fun than staring at a wall there's just neighborhoods and main roads), trying to play video games, taking pointless drives to the store to buy shitty junk food for a cheap dopamine hit, browsing here.
Holy christ this place is miserable. I ride my bike and I feel like I am the only person in this city. I haven't seen anyone my age since uni. Just a bunch of overweight, middle aged, redneck, trump worshiping, retarded cunts here. I want to move to the west coast or Colorado but even thinking about the process is suicidefuel. I'd have to figure out all this shit I have no concept of how to do like finding a place that won't jew me out of half my paycheck (you want independence goy? you have to pay the price!), finding a doctor, dentist etc there, getting there, doing everything myself, being a competent worker at my job there so I don't get fired. I have to move before I start my apprenticeship or I'm pretty much stuck here for 5 fucking years. I'd have to learn all this when all I've done up until now is rot in my room. I'd rather just die.
Holy christ this place is miserable. I ride my bike and I feel like I am the only person in this city. I haven't seen anyone my age since uni. Just a bunch of overweight, middle aged, redneck, trump worshiping, retarded cunts here. I want to move to the west coast or Colorado but even thinking about the process is suicidefuel. I'd have to figure out all this shit I have no concept of how to do like finding a place that won't jew me out of half my paycheck (you want independence goy? you have to pay the price!), finding a doctor, dentist etc there, getting there, doing everything myself, being a competent worker at my job there so I don't get fired. I have to move before I start my apprenticeship or I'm pretty much stuck here for 5 fucking years. I'd have to learn all this when all I've done up until now is rot in my room. I'd rather just die.
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