Last night I was trying to watch this certain porn video but I eventually had to stop. In it there was a hot Japanese foid (9/10 my idea woman) doing exercises, and then some European guy came in and started having his way with her. I just could not actually enjoy it because it felt so pathetic. And it was not even a matter of feeling cucked because I felt like this even before the guy came in. It hurt me seeing what I can't have (including solo part).
I wish I could just jerk off to stuff unthinkingly like a normie but years of isolation have made me a chronic analyzer. So I think I may have to terminate all viewing of erotic videos/images entirely. At a certain point the absurdity of it becomes apparent. You're not a young teenager satisfying sexual curiosity, you're 20+ years old and still a virgin.
BTW this is not an endorsement of NoFap nonsense. One can still masturbate without accessing porn, and I find pure imagination never induces the same sense of defeat.
I wish I could just jerk off to stuff unthinkingly like a normie but years of isolation have made me a chronic analyzer. So I think I may have to terminate all viewing of erotic videos/images entirely. At a certain point the absurdity of it becomes apparent. You're not a young teenager satisfying sexual curiosity, you're 20+ years old and still a virgin.
BTW this is not an endorsement of NoFap nonsense. One can still masturbate without accessing porn, and I find pure imagination never induces the same sense of defeat.
