When I was 14-15 I would larp as other races online. I would either claim to be spic or sand on sites like Tumblr, 4chan, and discord. This was a learned behavior for me. I learned from a young age that when I tell someone my actual race online, they either stop talking to me or I just become the center of jokes. Only when I turned 16 is when I stopped larping.
Recently, I had something brutal happen to me on a discord server that was traumatizing. I was on a Incelcore discord server for around two years. It was full of people I met on SoundCloud and other people in the Incelcore scene. I considered lots of people on there to be pretty good friends. We would talk everyday and it was a fun server. Nobody asked me race, so I didn’t bother revealing it.
One day on the server someone asked me for my race. I told them the truth (curry) and the vibe in the server instantly changed. They all thought I was joking, and wanted me to do a face reveal. Since I considered these people to be good friends, I revealed my face.
I experienced the most brutal racepill of my life after revealing my face. They all started instantly making the typical do not redeem jokes. I didn’t care obviously since I’ve been racepilled for around two years. What was really BRUTAL though was when I chose to joke back. There was a black guy in the server, so I called him a nigger. Instantly they said that was too far and banned me from the server. I knew these niggas for TWO YEARS, and they banned me for defending myself. This server had troon furries, but me being curry was somehow too far. It was honestly devastating and brutal. It reminded me of my place in the social hierarchy.