Oneitiscel
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I am a 21M Indian dude studying in Canada. I am a short (5'6), overweight (88kg, ~200lbs), and and cannot grow proper facial hair. Almost everything I mentioned above, are deemed ugly by the world. Whether it is me being and Indian (people somehow hate Indian men, especially Indian women), short (anywhere on social media), overweight (this might be different, people like dadbods), or a small penis (again, all over social media). I am not that physically fit, and sometimes can be weak. I have been battling anxiety and depression all my life, and again, it is not something considered manly or attractive. I have very high attention requirements, and obsess over stuff easily. Although I don't cry, I am not the stoic man who is a rock. I am a turbulence. In fact, I tried committing suicide several times this year. I am not sure what my career prospects are, but my performance in university hasn't been exceptional.
Will any woman find me attractive? I honestly don't know. Are there women who appreciate my presence? Definitely. Even if no woman finds me attractive to date, I won't stop loving myself. And most definitely won't hate on women. No one can control what is naturally attractive to them. Many women find me interested enough to be friends, and there us nothing less about being a friend to a woman.
I deserve all love in the world. But no one owes it to me but myself. The love and attention that comes from outside is unreliable and fluctuates. You don't know who wakes up one day and thinks you are not worth the love. But the love that comes from within, is something that I work to cultivate. To enjoy my own presence is something that I am working on. The whole world tells me I am unmanly, I am unattractive etc. But it won't stop me from loving myself. It didn't stop my friends, why should it stop me?
I might not be tall, I might be fat, I might have a small penis, I might not be muscular or strong, I might never even make a woman feel like I'll protect her, and most of all, I am an Indian. It doesn't matter to me because life is a pursuit of personal betterment. It is like Subway Surfers. There is no winning or losing only moving ahead and trying to beat your own score. Most of all, there is only one me. There has never been and never will be a me again. To me, I am precious. To my family I am precious. And I will treat myself as such.





