Just got home from watching a soccer match with my brother's normie friends and I'm drained. I don't really have friends and i haven't been around many people in a long time so the whole gathering was exhausting for me trying to appear "normal" so i won't embarrass my brother, i hate isolation but i also hate being an outcast man and i have to mention i wasn't picked on or anything but bonding with ppl and experiencing how normal individuals interact just overwhelms me with joy and pain so i just burnout quickly and that's brutal because i only could truly be relaxed around people who have the same struggles with me i.e social rejects.
