I’m a graycel. For at least the last ten years I’ve been in constant pain, from my inceldom (and other horrible things too, but the inceldom is the most impossible to cure). Constant pain. I’m at my breaking point. I’ve tried everything under the sun to get females. I’ve approached hundreds of females in my life (over a hundred in the past year alone) and got nothing. I’ve always managed to convince myself that it would get better, that I’d figure out the magic formula, that I’m just missing something obvious, that I just have to 1. Approach women (I have social anxiety so this took me years and years to do but I finally started doing it with immense courage and got NOTHING out of it), 2. Improve my fashion (Nothing), 3. Join social clubs at my university (the girls had zero interest in me), 4. Become more outgoing (they still had zero interest in me), 5. Social circle game (managed to find some friends, nothing came of it even after years), 6. Pickup artist bullshit (did nothing), 7. Just meeting girls from uni classes (they all rejected me), 8. Just “being myself” and not trying so hard (lmfao), and after my hundredth horrible rejection this year and going to a social event tonight where zero girls would flirt with me or even wanted to talk to me, I am just so tired, so fucking exhausted, so done with this shit. It will never, ever work. I can’t cope with ANOTHER ten years of pain and loneliness and rejection. I can’t.
If there is a God, he’s fucked with me, made it impossible to do things that come so easily to other people. I can’t even talk or have conversations like other people no matter how hard I try. Everything is so much harder with me. Everything is so fucking hard.
I don’t know what’s after this. I’m not religious. I’ve read statistical arguments about the simulation hypothesis. Maybe I’ll just exit this shit simulation and find another one. Tired of this miserable life, the fucking lies, being told to do this this this to alleviate my pain and it just never fucking works. I am so exhausted. I just want it all to stop. I want to start over.
If there is a God, he’s fucked with me, made it impossible to do things that come so easily to other people. I can’t even talk or have conversations like other people no matter how hard I try. Everything is so much harder with me. Everything is so fucking hard.
I don’t know what’s after this. I’m not religious. I’ve read statistical arguments about the simulation hypothesis. Maybe I’ll just exit this shit simulation and find another one. Tired of this miserable life, the fucking lies, being told to do this this this to alleviate my pain and it just never fucking works. I am so exhausted. I just want it all to stop. I want to start over.
