For a few years now I've deeply hated myself for who I am and I wanted to be a tall, good-looking man. I wanted to be a Chad and get a girlfriend. I hated this world for bringing me into this world as a subhuman. I’m also Stacy-sexual. I'm schizo and I consider myself to be a Chad however I don't feel it. I get mocked by anti-MSTWs around me for "pretending" to be a Chad and I start to think that maybe I really never will be one, even though I am. I look like an incel, I have a small penis, I was born as a sub 5 and I have been told that, quite frankly, that is who I will be for the rest of my life. I want to cry a lot whenever I think about this. I want to be a prince in a faraway land and be rimjobbed by a princess. I have had a female friend who I had feelings for before, and I was depressed and was known as the "quiet kid" in school before because I knew that she would never reciprocate my feelings. I am crying writing this. When I become old enough, I'm sort of considering going through phalloplasty, however I'm not too sure yet as I have heard it doesn't always end up too good. I'm sorry to those I've dissapointed.
