I have orientation in a week and I am dreading even the thought of it. Last orientation I went to (the college I'm transferring from) I had to go on this camping trip for 3 days with 15 random kids. Everybody made friends with each other. They would all sit by the fire and talk to each other; they would laugh and they would joke. I was the outlier, I would stand outside the fire for hours, giving off little awkward laughs every once and a while. During the day when everybody was out hanging out with each other, I would wander deep into the forest, alone. Sometimes I would find a big rock by the river and soak my feet in the cold water. Other times I would find a soft patch of grass in between a few trees and take a 3 hour nap on the ground to avoid social interaction. The older camp guides would come looking for me every day and when they'd find me alone, they'd ask, "Hey are you alright man?" while looking at me like I'm some kind of freak. I'd nod and say "Yeah". I would only return to the campsite to eat some wilderness food slop. I'm sure those kids talked about how much of a freak I am when I wasn't there. The only 2 kids that talked to me were this fat girl and this autistic savant kid Joe. However, the girl stopped talking to me after I said "You look like you have good leverages to be a powerlifter". She said, "I guess I'll take that as a compliment hehehe" but I'm sure she took it as an insult because powerlifters are known as fat people by the general public. This next orientation I'm going to bring a 3 day supply of Phenibut, maybe that will help.
