synthetic opioids turned my life to the better, apparently
DISCLAIMER
i don’t say what i did is good neither do i urge anyone to do the same thing, stay safe and don’t be stupid and reckless like me
so i am an unemployed ass who dropped out of university in the first month of studying, wasted all money i got when i turned 18 in like 10 months, turned 19 couple weeks ago and live with my mom. also have bipolar disorder type 2 (that’s why i dropped out) and severe social anxiety. due to the latter i have a quite dangerous relationships with benzodiazepines, mostly xanax. bout a week ago i went to my friends plug to buy some xans and he offered my 2 pills of tapentadol ER (i also made a post about it here recently) i decided fuck it, let’s try it and spent my last 15 dollars on it. i waited for a day when my mom wont be home and took both of them in within a day. i expected it to kill my sex drive and it kinda did, but i was bored and wanted to watch a movie at my flat with someone, so i went on a dating app and found some 22 yo girl who is a model and a model scout, we got drunk (all this while i’m on both tapentadol and xans) tried to fuck (due to obvious we weren’t very successful) and she offered me to become a model, 3 days later i have about 12 agencies wanting to sign a contract with me
what the actual fuck, why when i try to do something good and right i always fuck up, however when i do the most stupid shit possible (like getting drunk af on benzos and this time with opioids) life decides to give me a gift like this