Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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We're overly negative and pessimistic on this site, but I am telling you by analyzing my situation realistically: it's just not going to happen. There's no scenario that I can imagine that will lead to me dating/having sex.
One big problem is that I don't ever leave the house, it's the only place where I'm not very anxious. I don't have any friends, not even acquaintances. Also I've rotted in bed in front of a screen my whole life, it's the only lifestyle I know. Since I was a kid after school I used to rush straight home. Every weekend and every holiday in my life has been spent at home, voluntarily. Thing didn't change since childhood to this day. Hell, even when I was an alcoholic I'd just get drunk in my own room.
I could change my lifestyle, but I won't. There just isn't any point, there's no chance. And even if there were a 1% chance, I wouldn't go through the process of transforming my entire life and letting go of the one thing that gives me comfort in this life (rotting in my bed with my laptop), just to maybe but not really have a chance. Also I'm pathologically lazy.
And even if I did change my entire lifestyle and magically became a spartan focused on self-improvement. There are some things I Just can't help. Looks: This is important, the fact that I'm now bald is a BIG problem. Even if I fix my teeth, acne, wore contacts, lost weight etc... I'm already bald and I'll never afford to fix it. Also I'm way too lazy to go through all the shit that would require fixing it and even if I had a full-time job the salaries in this country won't pay for it. In addition, the lack of social circle, social skills etc... It's just not going to happen, even if I get over my depression, anxiety, laziness etc...
One big problem is that I don't ever leave the house, it's the only place where I'm not very anxious. I don't have any friends, not even acquaintances. Also I've rotted in bed in front of a screen my whole life, it's the only lifestyle I know. Since I was a kid after school I used to rush straight home. Every weekend and every holiday in my life has been spent at home, voluntarily. Thing didn't change since childhood to this day. Hell, even when I was an alcoholic I'd just get drunk in my own room.
I could change my lifestyle, but I won't. There just isn't any point, there's no chance. And even if there were a 1% chance, I wouldn't go through the process of transforming my entire life and letting go of the one thing that gives me comfort in this life (rotting in my bed with my laptop), just to maybe but not really have a chance. Also I'm pathologically lazy.
And even if I did change my entire lifestyle and magically became a spartan focused on self-improvement. There are some things I Just can't help. Looks: This is important, the fact that I'm now bald is a BIG problem. Even if I fix my teeth, acne, wore contacts, lost weight etc... I'm already bald and I'll never afford to fix it. Also I'm way too lazy to go through all the shit that would require fixing it and even if I had a full-time job the salaries in this country won't pay for it. In addition, the lack of social circle, social skills etc... It's just not going to happen, even if I get over my depression, anxiety, laziness etc...