TheJester
King of Jestermaxxed
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- Joined
- May 17, 2024
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For the past 4 years even before i went to University I had this whole feeling of being just "done with everything" mentally drained from Gaming (which I quit) or Doomscrolling, emotionally detached from having nobody in my life, physically suffering just from daily life, constantly in need of "new things" or to learn "stuff" - useless Information that i forget straight after.
Nowadays i dont even want to looksmaxx anymore, i still do because "you need to be the best version of yourself". Im just sick comparing myself to others and others comparing me to guys that have archived more, got a hot gf, look better etc.
My Anxiety has definitely worsen, i dont want to do shit at all anymore, it just drains me too much and no I do drink 3 liters of water, i do not take drugs, i do use supplements and eat fruits and nuts and "healthy" foods.
I just feel like a piece of charcoal, burned out and thrown away.
I just watched this Video:
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tprYbop8Bpg
Its about this rich Chad who has a high paying secure job, a Stacy wife, tons of friends, a massive mansion and a nice car and like...Ill never have any of this. Like my parents should have done different things, my grandparents should have given me their money to invest.
And its not like i didnt try, ive done trading, crypto mining, dropshipping, beermoney hax. It never amounted to anything really.
Im at a point were my parents expect me to "Get my shit together" and like I start at basically 0... even my degree is a meme really.
Dunno if its worth it to try to get a trade apprentanceship at 25 in Germany - most likely not they all only make 2k a month and like...its pointless and i would be probably to drained to start that now.
I really just want to sleep, forever.
Nowadays i dont even want to looksmaxx anymore, i still do because "you need to be the best version of yourself". Im just sick comparing myself to others and others comparing me to guys that have archived more, got a hot gf, look better etc.
My Anxiety has definitely worsen, i dont want to do shit at all anymore, it just drains me too much and no I do drink 3 liters of water, i do not take drugs, i do use supplements and eat fruits and nuts and "healthy" foods.
I just feel like a piece of charcoal, burned out and thrown away.
I just watched this Video:
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tprYbop8Bpg
Its about this rich Chad who has a high paying secure job, a Stacy wife, tons of friends, a massive mansion and a nice car and like...Ill never have any of this. Like my parents should have done different things, my grandparents should have given me their money to invest.
And its not like i didnt try, ive done trading, crypto mining, dropshipping, beermoney hax. It never amounted to anything really.
Im at a point were my parents expect me to "Get my shit together" and like I start at basically 0... even my degree is a meme really.
Dunno if its worth it to try to get a trade apprentanceship at 25 in Germany - most likely not they all only make 2k a month and like...its pointless and i would be probably to drained to start that now.
I really just want to sleep, forever.