Sir Silentium
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I can relate. I was also severely bullied and a social punching bag like you mentioned.I actually have an answer to that, through my own anecdotes:
When i was severly bullied in high school, i always felt bad for other guys getting the same treatment, but the thought of helping them didn't cross my head because..... i honestly had such low self esteem and confidence that i convinced myself that it's impossible for me to escape being the weak target to mess with, that i was destined to be a punching bag. Seeing others like me, i pitied them and even talked with some, but i felt it was inevitable for people like us to suffer and not retaliate because we simply had no chance.
This messed with my head so much that i was convinced that i'm a "monster" and that i must've done something terrible to deserve my fate, and that only bad people get beaten and humiliated, so it must be the right way to bully someone like me.
Somehow highschool was finished, people graduated with fond memories and great hopes for the future, while i was on the verge of mental corruption and insanity.
When you convince yourself that you're helpless, you simply cease to find ways to protect yourself, at least that's my own experience
However I would get dreams of defending others getting the same treatment. But in real life if I was to stand up for myself or anyone else, I would be put down.





