Lycan
INCEL LIVES MATTER
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- Nov 3, 2021
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i have had problems in my life from a young age. i was always around a dysfunctional family, my mom and her bf would always scream and fight, my dad and step mom would always scream and fight, my dad got kicked out of my grandparents house after NEETing on drugs and ended up homeless then into rehab (2 times), my mom attempted suicide in the room next to me when i was about 10, i came home from school to my alcoholic dad slumped over on the floor with a pistol and ammunition next to him, and MORE...how did i cope with this? video games!!! i really never even thought about or addressed these problems much when i was younger because i was constantly in front of a screen in a totally different world. video games sucked me out of my crumbled family life and into the world that i wanted to be in, a game that helped me the most was probably gmod because you can do about anything you want. i had no irl friends so i made a lot of online friends that i was constantly fucking around with on gmod and hoi4 and other games. one of my favorite gmod servers was 1942rp because i really love history and you get to roleplay as a nazi in that gamemode and do cool nazi stuff it was only until i stopped playing games that i began to really look back and reevaluate my life and i have been in a constant state of just feeling down on myself, i wish video games could give me that feeling again like i wasnt who i really was