It's Over Bought a shit ton of alcohol, penis update, death, etc

[Ambatukam Alone]

More tasty wine, some beer and stuff. Down the beer quick for intoxication, savor the wine and fine drink. I have now regained the ability to get turned on by gooning, and enjoy seeing even average-looking females on my screen, but I can barely feel my dick and it's actually like completely numb after two or three hours of edging.

I am ready to die, I feel like I've tried to redeem myself, got in touch with my values, did some good deeds, apologized, set up some goals, subgoals and pit-stops and can lazily drift toward that for as long as is needed etc. Now, when will something come and finish me off? We'll see, we finna see.

I'm free from suffering from a lack of sex/jealousy of sex-havers due to adopting the strategy in my signature. A huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. The need for romance is trickier, but I think I'm dealing with it by just knowing that I can't actually form relationships and never have done so ever. Apparently it might be a symptom of the autism, or maybe some psychological thing on top of that as well. When I imagine a couple on a romantic date, or a mother comforting her child I think "what the fuck are they doing?" and feel nothing.

Let me keep drinking, take some pauses and then continue writing getting progressively more drunk. Btw, don't drink it fucks up your brain, membranes, muscle, sleep, testicles, everything.

Well, cooked some steaks and but them in hamburger buns, with mayonnaise. I actually agree with veganism but shit happens.

I can't stress enough how nice it is not be affected by how others are having sex and stuff. If I could feel my dick I'd be fucking set up, maybe. Try my stuff, I have a thread.
I'm asking for suggestions similar to that thread if you have some perspective or strategy that you use for the romantic parts as well.

How I'm supposed to not become a full-on alcoholic is hard to figure out. Appreciation for my brocels.

 

[Ogostt]

Hope the steak and alcohol were good, I suggest giving yourself small objectives and doing them kinda of as a bucket list, it may not be a life changer but it can be a nice cope if you feel you're too fucked up in life

 

[Clavicus Vile]

Yeah man, better to just try to be as comfortable as possible before the last days. I won’t even set a date for when I go to end it, I’ll know when the time is right. There’s still some more content I’d like to enjoy first, and since I’m a NEET I’ve got more than enough time.

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

if you feel you're too fucked up in life

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h0z6YNSwrZA

 

[5'4 king of khhv]

Life is nothing bro

 

[chalk son]

Btw, don't drink it fucks up your brain, membranes, muscle, sleep, testicles, everything.

cheers, i can only drink so much but i’m finna start drinking when i somehow get a job you betcha. you should get more snacks too

the romantic parts are harder to separate for me but i think the same strategy in your thread would help otherwise you’d hate to bitchslap yourself for even letting your mind drift there. how about a mental bitchslap? you’d maybe be hella sober

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

cheers, i can only drink so much but i’m finna start drinking when i somehow get a job you betcha. you should get more snacks too

the romantic parts are harder to separate for me but i think the same strategy in your thread would help otherwise you’d hate to bitchslap yourself for even letting your mind drift there. how about a mental bitchslap? you’d maybe be hella sober

You removed your previous comment? I had a hard time understanding it but it sounded interesting. Drinking may make it more difficult to hold onto your job if you get one. Mental bitchslaps sound interesting, but I think my current strategy of just believing I can't even form any relationships might be enough (acceptance). I also don't get jealous of romance/love/marriage, it's more that it triggers some lack of connection/warmth I've felt for a long, long time.

 

[chalk son]

You removed your previous comment? I had a hard time understanding it but it sounded interesting. Drinking may make it more difficult to hold onto your job if you get one. Mental bitchslaps sound interesting, but I think my current strategy of just believing I can't even form any relationships might be enough (acceptance). I also don't get jealous of couples, it's more that it triggers some lack of connection/warmth I've felt for a long, long time.

? i never removed my comment anywhere, but i don’t know which comment you mean. yeah a drink is a luxury with work schedules/expected habit of agency and all that jazz. an occasional treat perhaps here and there i’m thinking although i wish i could attempt drinking at work. that’s all i have too, when i see them it’s like a vague fantasy to want to cuddle in my face

 

[chalk son]

You removed your previous comment?

are you mistaking this thread for the other thread in your signature?

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

? i never removed my comment anywhere, but i don’t know which comment you mean. yeah a drink is a luxury with work schedules and all that jazz. an occasional treat perhaps here and there i’m thinking although i wish i could attempt drinking at work. that’s all i have too, when i see them it’s like a vague fantasy to want to cuddle in my face

My bad, I thought we were in my other thread about the actual perspective strategy coping thing. Maybe I really should stop drinking, I already have some brain damage from the loneliness/depression I guess.

 

[chalk son]

I already have some brain damage from the loneliness/depression I guess.

this is factually underrated as i can relate

and no problem just try to take it easy as you’re able to afford yourself that experimental semi-versatility and catch yourself where you can

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

and no problem just try to take it easy as you’re able to afford yourself that experimental semi-versatility and catch yourself where you can

Sums up my situation quite well, thanks bro.

 

[chalk son]

Sums up my situation quite well, thanks bro.

easy but enjoy yourself

 

[ImperialArk]

find another healthier hyperfixation like gaming or something, alchohol is pretty meh as a cope

 

[Ambatukam Alone]

alchohol is pretty meh as a cope

Shit sucks. I do also game, goon, lift and improove to some extent.