Sorry i didnt understood what you were trying to say. I mean, i have a job. I wouldn't say im wageslave because i have savings and i could leave this job and still have money to live some few years before running out and be at zero again. But the thing is that i prefer to be into the job. I mean, my job is boring, meaningless, pathetic. I despise the people i work with, they are arrogant lazy cucks with their normie lives, but my life is so miserable that if i don't do some job whatever it is i may kill myself at some point. I'm a miserable person in deep depression with nothing going on in my life, and as time goes by i feel like i'm more doomed and out of touch with it all. Feels like i'm playing some sort of evil videogame here in life, and there's a code which makes me unable to really connect with another human, specially with woman. I don't know how much longer i'll be around but it has been pain enough to live by. I don't see any point for this. Sorry for the long text