When I was 22 I met a girl via an acquaintance of mine. The three of us would attend classes together. The girl would laugh with whatever I said and she would always comment on how smat and insightful I was. That was the only person that ever cared about my ingenuity and show it. She was strange ethnic girl. She was not facially ugly but she lacked a sense of style and her hair were awful. Not very easy to get hard with. A bit dumb too.
After knowing her for a few months I decided to ask her out. At the time I was into the whole "Alpha male" cope and I believed that it was my beta personality that held me back. I wanted to lose my virginity and she was the only candidate in my proximity. My plan was to pump and dump her. I told her to go out together and she agreed. She said she was free in general so we could schedule it any day I wanted. A date was arranged.
As soon as I went home I started to question wether I liked her or not. My intentions were not the best. It didn't feel right going out with a girl I didn't give a fuck about. So I texted her and cancelled it. I was bluepilled at the time so I didn't regret it because I believed that the right one would eventually come and my first time would be meaningful and shit.
Of course, that never happened. Every girl is repulsed by me. I get rejected every fucking time. I turned 23 and I'm still a dateless KHV. Fuck being a subhuman. On top of that, the girl I didn't go out with looksmaxed and is now a strong 7. She ascended to a feminine godess and mogs most girls in STEM. And of course, she doesn't talk to me anymore because I'm subhuman trash compared to her and her Chad boyfriend. Fuck this shit.
If I was blackpilled back in the day I would have known how easy women have it and I would date that bitch. Fuck the bluepill and it's lies. That shit deprived me of the only chance I had to go on a date. Now, I'm willing to fuck girls way worse than her but still get rejected. Being subhuman sucks but being a bluepilled subhuman is worse.
TL;DR
I had a date but cancelled it. The girl looksmaxed, got with a Chad while I rot in inceldom